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Elemental Goddess  
by wizardtho


Chapter 37a: Fully Sated Pt 1



BPOV:

The pack made their way out the back door, waving goodbye as I got into my starting position for Yoga. "Night guys. Same time in the morning?" They nodded before they left, closing the door behind them.

Char asked, "Advanced or Vampire Level tonight?"

I shook my head. "Too tense for Vampire... let's stick with Advanced."

She nodded, then we started my routine. I was able to hold each position for about 15 minutes. When I finished, I moved fluidly into my goddess resting pose.

I could feel the energy moving through my body. It felt like the earth energy did today. That made me think. I wanted to check the bonds, but I also wanted to see if I could find my mates' energy. I wouldn't draw any, but I wanted to know how to get to it in case I needed to in a pinch.

From my relaxed position on the floor, I said, "Guys, the elders told me today that I could draw energy from you, if I needed to in an emergency. It was best if you had recently fed, as to not draw too much and trigger your need to feed. I don't want to draw from you now, but would you mind if I sat with each of you to find your energy flows?"

Peter responded, "I think that's a good idea, Little One. If anythin', it’ll help if ya need to draw from us in a hurry, or if you're really weak and can't wait."

Jasper and Char agreed, so I pulled Char down to me. She sat on the floor, so I straddled her lap, sitting in my lotus pose with my hands on her shoulders. I had her hold my hips, then I checked the bond. I immediately felt and saw it, noticing how much stronger it was than last time. I kissed her softly. "The bond is so much stronger, My Oasis... and so beautiful. Are you ready?"

She smiled, "Whenever you are."

I closed my eyes, breathing in her scent for a few minutes, focusing on finding her energy center. I found it in the middle of her torso, positioned between her bottom ribs and her navel. I mentally kissed it before backing out, coming back to myself. She smiled because she knew it worked. I nodded in agreement.

I got up, then Jasper took her place. I resumed the position, this time in Jasper's lap, then checked the bond. Stronger than ever. I kissed him softly. "You take such good care of me, Cowboy. Ready?"

He placed his hands on my hips as I placed mine on his chest. I closed my eyes to focus. I found it in the same place as Char's... much more quickly, now that I knew where to look. I mentally kissed it, then backed out. When I opened my eyes, he hugged me to him, whispering, "You kissed my energy, didn't you? I felt it, Darlin'. It felt so good."

I nodded, kissing him gently before getting back up. Peter took his place, so I took mine in his lap. I checked my bond with him. The same thing… stronger and more beautiful than last time. I kissed him, then we did the same process as with Jasper and Char.

After I kissed his energy and opened my eyes, he got up off the floor with me still wrapped around him, walking us into the bathroom. Jasper made sure the oil was ready next to the bed, while Char put towels on the warming rack, and Peter started the shower. They gave me a few minutes alone. I took care of necessities, brushed my teeth, then took my hair down... setting the flowers Char wove into my braids on the counter. I called the all clear for them to come in as I got under the hot water, resting my hands against the tile wall.

I closed my eyes, then felt the energy of the water flowing over me. I smiled at knowing it felt me, too.

Char slipped in front of me, while Jasper and Peter both molded themselves flush against each half of my back. I could tell the difference between them without even looking. My mouth went to Char's shoulder, licking the water drops from it, sucking lightly at the juncture of her shoulder and neck. She moaned softly.

I felt Peter get down on his knees behind me to lick my elemental mark as Jasper licked the top half of my spine. I whimpered, my arms giving out just as Char brought herself flush against my front, whispering, "Lean all your weight on me, Sweetness. I have you. Let us take care of you. Let us make you feel good."

She held me against her by my hips, nuzzling her face down into my breasts. She saw the mark Peter had left and whispered, "Jasper, this is so fuckin' hot... you need to see this."

Peter chuckled, then doused my mark before licking roughly.

Just as Jasper stood flush against me to lean over to see what Char was talking about, my head fell back on his shoulder, crying out while cumming. He and Char both groaned. Peter licked again, causing me to arch my tailbone toward his tongue, bringing my breasts even closer to Char's face. She latched onto a nipple as Jasper tugged on the other.

Peter widened my stance, pressing three fingers deep inside me. He coated my mark again, curled his fingers, then licked my elements as Char sucked hard and Jasper tugged on my nipple. I cried out loudly, releasing all over Peter's hand. "More," I panted, "Please, more. Deeper."

He slowly inserted a fourth finger. I clamped down on him as soon as he was deep enough. He wiggled his fingers while pinching my clit with his other hand. I whimpered, then practically moaned, "Oh, God. Yes."

I grabbed Jasper's length with one hand as I found Char's center with the other, working both of them while Peter worked me. I didn't want to cum again yet, so I bit down on Char's collarbone hard, growling into her skin. She cried out as she came on my fingers with pants and pleas for more. That had the opposite effect on me as I had in mind, causing me to cum instantly.

Jasper got behind Char as Peter moved me back some. I slid down onto my knees while Jasper picked Char up, spreading her open for me by the inside of her thighs. Peter sat on his heels, then slid me onto his cock as I licked my fingers, tasting Char's sweet essence.

As I slid up on Peter, I licked a line straight up Char's core, ending at her swollen clit. I tugged gently on it with my teeth as I slid back down on Peter. Then he took over my motions, so I could concentrate on Char. I braced one hand against the wall, then slid three fingers deep into Char as I tugged harder on her clit. I flicked the small nub between my teeth while I curled and uncurled my fingers deep inside her pussy, making her cum in my mouth. She whimpered, moaned at how good I felt. I sucked every bit of her essence I could, savoring her island sweet flavor.

Peter dropped me down on his length a little harder, which caused me to cry out in pleasure as I spread my legs wider. Char adjusted her hips for Jasper to slide into her, giving me the best view of his cock sliding in and out of her, her muscles gripping him but not wanting to let go. My head fell back onto Peter's shoulder and I whimpered, "Fuck... look. That's one of the sexiest sights I've seen... watching his cock slide into her. Ungh, do we look that good? Ohh, Fuck. Peter, you feel so good."

My hands both went in different directions. One went to my breast, the other to my clit. I circled my clit tightly, but my eyes opened to watch my Jasper fucking my Char. My fingers moved faster as my other hand twisted and pinched my nipples. Char said, "Fuck, you're so beautiful like that, Sweetness... spread open and sliding on Peter's cock... your fingers on your aching little clit... Fuck... Jazz, cum with me... Shit, yes!"

I watched the pleasure from her orgasm take over her face, then I let out a deep moan as I came with her. "Christ, so much... so deep. Fuck!"

Peter came two strokes behind me, pulling my hips down while thrusting up deeply, "So tight, Kitten... so fuckin' good... Ungh!" He bit down on my shoulder. I came again, crying out at the exquisite pleasure.

When I finally came down, I was still seated fully on Peter with his fingertips slowly tracing my folds. Jasper was tenderly licking Peter's teeth indentations on my skin, while Char was licking up the vein on the other side of my neck with her fingers slowly caressing my nipples.

I had the urge to get out of the water, but didn't want this to end. Jasper must have been projecting my emotions, because they all stood up at once, then Peter carried me directly to the end of the bed. I leaned against Peter as Char and Jasper dried me with two of the towels, laying the third warm towel on the bed in the middle. It was larger than the other two, almost beach towel sized.

After Char dried my hair, Peter gently sat us on the edge of the bed. Char lovingly brushed my hair for me. She twisted it up in a french twist, tucking the ends underneath, then kissed my spine from the nape of my neck to my tailbone. I was humming by the time she reached the middle of my back. Jasper added his kisses behind Char's, causing me to melt into Peter. I mewled in pleasure, "I feel like I'm being worshipped. This feels so, so good."

Peter kissed my neck and shoulder, whispering into my flesh, "That's because ya are, Kitten. It's about time we worship ya. Ya do and go through so much everyday. It's time for us to make sure ya know how much we appreciate ya. Hush now, relax. Let us love ya. Let us worship ya."

I hummed a sigh of content. My arousal was at an all time high from their loving attention, but I squirmed a bit to ease the tension.

Peter laid me on my side on the warm towel, then Char, Peter and Jasper all continued their attentions to my body, whispering sweet nothings with every kiss or lick to my spine, neck and shoulder. They brought their hands into the mix. Char moved down to my legs and ass when Jasper took over my back. Peter moved lower to my breasts. Char nipped at my ass playfully as she glided her hands up the back of my legs, causing me to moan, "Ungh. God, I love when you do that, Char."

She licked the line where my ass met the top of my thigh, then bit down gently on the end of the line closest to my wet, aching core. I whimpered, arching my ass towards her.

They rolled me on my stomach, then spread my legs. Char moved into the space created. I could hear her taking in my aroused scent. I widened my legs a bit more as I wiggled. She grabbed the cheeks of my ass, kneaded them, moaning as she licked the growing wetness from my inner thighs. I whimpered, begging, "More. please, I need you. All of you. Don't stop."

Jasper lifted my hips to place a pillow under them, positioning me into a better spot for Char. She licked the outside of my folds, nipping them playfully as she went. She stopped, holding my hips, "Not tonight, Sweetness. Let it build. It'll be so much better when it finally happens. No grinding, no thrusting back, no opening your eyes. Just close your eyes and feel."

I closed my eyes as she asked. After a second, I felt her fingertips gliding up the backs of my legs. Another set of hands ghosted up my spine, with kisses and small licks following. Jasper. Then I felt Peter's fingers moving stray hair up away from my neck. His lips and tongue instantly went to work on the vein along my neck and my shoulders. I didn't feel Char for a second, but heard her shuffling around in the room. I wanted her to come back to me.

Soon she was back, licking and nibbling her way up the inside of my thighs. They resituated me so that I was on my knees, leaned forward against the headboard, my legs as far apart as they would comfortably go. I felt something cool against the top of my inner thigh that wasn't my vampires, so I flinched a little. "Shh. You know I wouldn't hurt you, Sweetness. Just relax and feel. Let it build."

I nodded as I tried to relax, breathing deeply a few times. It worked when I felt her tongue against my rear entrance, her fingers tracing my outer folds. I whimpered, wanting more instantly, so she touched the cool thing to my folds as her tongue thrust gently into my ass. I whimpered louder... I wanted more. So much more. Please, I'm begging here!

"Ungh," was all I managed to voice.

The cool thing slowly made it's way up the outside of my folds, teasing. I wanted to scream out for her to do something with it... anything. "Please... ungh."

She slowly licked from my clit to my rear entrance, flicking against my clit and thrusting her tongue into my aching pussy. I cried out in need, then she touched the cool plastic thing to the outside of my core. Twirling it in circles, she took pleasure in teasing me as she lapped at my clit. By this time, Peter and Jasper had both slid their heads under me, and were nipping and scraping their teeth against my already painfully tight nipples. I was constantly moaning now, begging for them to make me cum for them.

Suddenly, I had the urge to feel the Major... I whimpered pitifully, knowing I couldn't have him right now... knowing Jasper wanted time to hunt properly. I was such a big urge though. I wanted to feel him using the fur flogger or the crop on me as Char and Peter licked every inch of Major's playful marks. It was almost a dire need now, as I felt Char slip the cool thing towards my clit.

"Stop, please!" I begged, practically jumping off the bed away from them. "I can't... it's getting too strong, and I can't... you won't... I have to..."

I was panting, pacing, trying to control the urge, but nothing was helping. "Help, please, make it stop!"

Jasper grabbed onto me to hold me still. He forced my chin up to look at me, then nodded to Peter and Char when he saw my eyes were normal. "What's wrong, Darlin'? Why did you move away from us? Talk to me, Sugar. You can tell me anything."

I shook my head forcefully, "I can't... if I say it out loud it won't go away. It needs to go away, because I can't have it right now. I can't... it won't... make it stop... make the need go away. Please!"

I was begging, tears falling down my face rapidly. The need to feel Major was almost consuming now. I cried out as I clutched my chest, the need so consuming all of a sudden that I couldn't breathe. I felt my eyes change. Oh, shit. Not now. "AAhhh!"

I closed my eyes, panting and trying to breathe. I couldn't breathe. "ISABELLA!" My eyes flashed open.

I'm not in an episode. I know this. This is different. This is my need taking over. Fuck!

"NO! You can't... be here right now. It's not an... episode. I know that. You... won't come to me without... hunting first and... being prepared. Only to goddess during... an episode. Not here. Not since you... aren't prepared. It's... just the... need. It's taking over. Just help... it go away. I can't... have you... right now. I'm not... allowed. Not allowed. No time to prepare, so not allowed."

He tightened his grip slightly on my chin, then said forcefully, "Isabella, look at me, now. Who am I, and what's the need ya have?"

I shook my head, but answered slowly so I wasn't panting it out. "You're my Major, and you aren't supposed to be here. My need for you to play with me was becoming too much, so I got away from them to make it go away. It was consuming me. The need to feel your crop and flogger against my skin, to feel Peter and Char licking your pretty pink marks. I had to make it stop, but I couldn't stop it. It's like a pure need that just took over me. The need made my eyes change. You aren't supposed to be here. Jasper is. Jasper won't let you see me until I have an episode or he's prepared. He's not prepared, nor is this an episode. You can't be here. Fuck, I need you so much it's tearing me apart inside, but I can't! I can't give myself to you now. I'm so sorry!"

Anger flashed in his eyes, then he said in a low tone that spoke volumes, "Isabella, what makes ya think Jasper wasn't prepared?"

I didn't know what he was getting at, so I answered honestly. "I haven't given Jasper notice that I wanted to play with you, and he hasn't hunted. He likes to hunt right before, so there is less likely to be danger."

He continued in the same tone, "Isabella, do ya think that just because Jasper hasn't hunted today, that he wasn't prepared for this? Prepared for the event that ya might need me?"

I shook my head, trying to think around the need, "I... I... I don't know. He doesn't talk to me about it. He just asked me to give him warning and time to prepare. You're not supposed to see me until then. I can't have you on a whim... not now... he won't think it's safe."

He walked over to the window, grabbed tightly to his hair, then I heard him mumble. "Christ... I fucked this up... again."

I cried harder, sliding to the floor against the wall. The need was consuming me even more... totally consumed... I clutched my stomach as I screamed out, my head hitting the wall behind me. I curled into a ball on my side, but Major picked me up and whisked me to the bed.

Just then, Char's phone beeped saying she had a text. Her eyes shot to Major, then she whispered so fast and low I couldn't hear. He nodded his head minutely, then she left the room while he looked at me.

"Isabella, listen to me, now. I promised ya once before that I would never leave ya again when ya needed me. Ya need me now. Jasper knew ya would need me out of the blue some time soon, so he was prepared for it. Look at my eyes. See how light they are? I could never hurt ya… not ever. Jasper realised that. He was wrong by not warnin' ya. I am not leavin' ya when ya need me, Isabella, and that's final."

A sob broke through my chest as I hugged myself to him. Char came back in the room, nodding. She laid a box on the dresser, placing the lid underneath the box. "Isabella, we may not be in the playroom, but I will take care of ya. Ya understand that all the rules are still in place?"

I nodded, the tears slowing as I looked into his eyes. "Yes, Major. All of my rules are still in place."

He uncurled me from him while ordering, "Good. Now stand in the center of the room facin' me, Isabella."

I immediately rushed to do as he said. I was going to be good. I was so happy I could have him play with me. The need for him was so deep. My whole body was fluttering with anticipation as I got into position.

I could feel my arousal return full force. His head fell back, his eyes closing as he took a deep breath in. He walked over to the box, looked at what was inside, then started laying everything out on the dresser, tossing the box to the bedroom door. There were several different things on the dresser now. Each one made my need for him grow.

There were a few different lengths of bars, four leather cuffs, a crop that was longer with a thinner tip than the one he used on me, a flogger that had a leather handle and all leather falls, a blindfold, two lengths of chain, plus a heavy duty looking ceiling bracket set.

He told Peter to get the tools from under the sink in the kitchen, then mount the ceiling brackets to the beam in the center of the room. I bit my lip to stifle my moan. I needed his attention, but he wasn't even looking at me.

Patience... breathe in, breathe out... patience. Shit, not working.

"Isabella, as soon as Peter is done installin' the ceilin' brackets, we'll begin. Char's gonna help me get ya ready."

He handed the two ankle cuffs and the longer bar to Char. She put the cuffs on me, then hooked the bar between them, making my legs spread wide. Jasper did the same with my wrists. He handed one length of chain to Char, then they hooked the chains into the rings on the bar near my wrists. Peter called that he was ready, so they handed the free ends of the chains to Peter. Peter lifted the chains to a point where my whole body was stretched up, my weight resting on the balls of my feet. "Right there, Peter. Hook her in."

Peter hooked the chains into the ceiling brackets before climbing back down. I wasn't uncomfortable, but I felt really....

"How do ya feel, Isabella?"

I replied immediately, "Calm, but excited at the same time, Sir. Also, extremely exposed and very aroused."

I almost whimpered the last part. I bit my lip when I finished, but I still moaned. He would be upset if I didn't let him hear me. He checked my bindings, nodding, then said, "Exactly how ya should feel. Now when I start, Peter and Charlotte, ya have free reign to lick any mark I make on Isabella's beautiful skin, but do not enter her in any way."

I whimpered, knowing this would be the best torture. Peter and Char both said, "Yes, Major."

Major picked up the crop, then walked around me, teasing me with the thin end. I moaned while watching him. Since Char twisted my hair up earlier, my back was completely bare to him. He slid the crop up my spine, teasing again. I whimpered. The crop flicked against my right ass cheek, causing me to sigh in content. He flicked several more times; the slight sting felt so good as it melted into pleasure.

He moved around to my front. Just as Peter and Char started licking the marks on my ass, Major's crop came down on one nipple then the other. I cried out with the pleasure/pain feeling, then panted, "So good."

He flicked it against my inner thighs and folds a few times, then moved around the back of me again. Char and Peter came in front of me, each taking a nipple deep into their mouths, circling it with their tongues. Major cropped the back of my thighs and my ass some more, then said, "Such a beautiful color, but I think we can do better."

Peter and Char moved down to my inner thighs and folds. I cried out at the sensations they were creating. "Isabella, ya remember that ya aren't to cum until I say so, right?"

I panted, whimpering loudly, "Yess... Sirr."

Just then, I felt the leather falls of the flogger against my skin. "Shit! Oh, please."

There was a lot more sting with this flogger than there was with the fur and leather mix. As soon as the falls left my skin, Peter and Char were licking them. I cried out, my arousal leaking down my inner thighs. Major gathered it on his fingers, then traced my folds. I jerked as I cried out again, my clit so sensitive. I tried hard not to cum.

"Would ya like to ask me somethin', Isabella?"

My whole body was flushed, so close to cumming, but I wanted him to be pleased and tell me when to cum. "N-No, Sir... no-nothing to a-ask," I panted.

He traced my folds again, then flicked my swollen, aching clit. I screamed out at the pain of holding off my orgasm, then whimpered. He backed up, then he took the flogger to my core.

As soon as the falls left my skin, Major dropped to his knees to lick the marks he made. He worked his way from the top of my mound, tugging on my folds when he reached them. "Not until my teeth are tuggin' on ya swollen clit, Isabella. Not until then."

I whimpered, but nodded. He skipped over my sensitive nub, licked the marks on my outer folds, causing me to scream in frustration. He traced the marks from near my opening to the top of my mound, twirling his tongue through my mound. Then suddenly he was tugging hard on my clit with his teeth, his tongue flicking the nub, and I shuddered while screaming out my orgasm. I couldn't have stopped it if I had to. Char handed him something under me, then I felt the same cool from earlier, just before Major inserted it into my soaked, orgasming pussy.

When he was done, it started vibrating, which thrust me into a series of mind-blowing orgasms. "Fuck! Oh, shit. So good, can't stop. Pleaseohpleaseoh, fuuckkk!"

The vibrations got stronger, then Char, Peter, and Major all bit down on some part of my oversensitive flesh. I came and came, delirious in my pleasure, not hearing anything other than blood rushing in my ears. Major added his fingers, pushing the vibrations against my secret spot. I jerked, shook violently, screaming until I lost my voice. I shattered apart, flooding Major's hand and the floor beneath, almost passing out at the extremity of the pleasure and pain in my body. They let go of their bites as the vibrations slowed to a stop.

He didn't remove his fingers or the cool vibrator thing until I looked into his eyes. When I did, he slowly removed both, licking slowly from his palm to the tips of his fingers. Then he showed me the cool thing. It was shaped like an egg, having a long cord with a remote at the other end. "This, my sexy fuckin' goddess mate, is a vibratin’ egg. From the reaction ya just had to it, we’ll definitely be seein’ it a lot more.”

After a few seconds, he asked, “How are you feeling, Darlin'?"

This is my Jasper. I knew my eyes were normal again, and Major felt my need for him sated. I smiled lazily as my head fell to my shoulder. I tried to talk, but my throat was so raw. I mouthed, "Too raw. Can't talk."

He nodded, "Let's get you unhooked and the full circulation restored to your arms. Once we do that, then we'll get you something to drink, a pad, and a pen. Until then, we'll ask yes or no questions."

Peter and Jasper started unhooking me while Char grabbed the towels we dropped on the bathroom floor. She handed one to Jasper, then wiped the wood floor with the other one.

When they had me free of my bindings, Peter rushed me to the towel on the bed to lay me on my back. Jasper and Peter each took an arm, massaging it to relieve the slight soreness and get circulation going again. Char massaged my hips and pelvic bone to ease the strain of the position they were in. Jasper and Peter sat me up before rotating my arms for a minute, bending and releasing my elbows, then Jasper scooted behind me while Peter left the room. I wanted to ask some questions.

"Are you alright, Darlin'?" Jasper whispered into my shoulder as he kissed it.

I nodded while resting back into him. Peter came back in with two water bottles, a thermos of coconut milk, as well as the pad and pen. I downed the waters immediately, then took a few sips right out of the thermos. I would need the whole thing, anyway. I wrote on the pad:

I feel sated, for sure. A little weak, and curious. How was I able to release that much? Don't get me wrong, that string of orgasms was more intense than I've ever felt, but how was it possible? The floor under me was soaked. So were you.

He smiled softly, "I don't know, Sugar. Some women can only release a small amount of fluid,  some can release a large amount. You release more than most on an average night... and tonight was definitely more than average."

Peter kissed my hip as he laid down next to us, "Damn, Kitten. I wish we could make ya cum like that every time. It was so hot to see ya fall completely apart, lost in pleasure like that. One of these days, one of us needs to tape ya cummin' like that, so ya can see how exquisite ya look when in that state. A true goddess."

He kissed my hip again, then kneaded it gently, "Would ya like somethin' to eat?"

I shook my head as I wrote, “Nothing to eat, thanks. I need to go outside to draw energy, though. I feel a little weak. I'll do that as soon as I finish my coconut milk. I need to go talk to the family, too, but I think it can wait until morning. They need to know the changes that can be made to my food intake. I also wanted to tell them about what happened with Charlie, and warn them that he will be attending training. Speaking of which, you three need to hunt soon. No buts. None of you have fed recently. Just because you all won't hurt me is no reason to be lax with your feeding. I know you don't want to leave me to hunt, but the wolves are here. Jasper can go with a few of the family, and Peter and Char can go north after Jasper has fed. It won't take long for any of you to feed. I will still have at least one mate and 4 wolves to guard me... plus the rest of the family. I'll be fine. Promise me you will feed.”

"You're right, Darlin'. We've been so busy concentrating on your needs, that we haven't been careful with ours. We still need to be cautious. I need to apologise, Darlin'. Please hear me out. I should've told you when I realised I wouldn't hurt you no matter what. Darlin', anytime you need the Major, just say so. No waiting, no preparing, just you and the Major... along with Char and Peter if you want them to join. I was wrong for not telling you when I first realised. I could've prevented what you went through tonight. I'm so sorry."

I wrote quickly, hating that he couldn't hear my voice right now. “Jasper, listen. How much have the four of us been going through lately? Shit has been piling up on us so quickly that we can't even figure out what's what. Tell, me when would you have been able to have a private conversation with us about that? Not since we got here, that's for sure. Half the time I feel like we're prisoners. Wolves, elders, goddesses, elementals, Charlie, Cullens, Denalis, Victoria, newborns, Volturi, Maria's army, and prophecies... along with Goddess only knows what else. How long has it been since the Cullens left? Not that fucking long. Please don't beat yourself up about it. I know now, so it won't happen again. I know that whatever or whoever I need, even if it isn't an episode, I can have it/them. Now no more on this. Final word, promise?”

He nodded into my neck. "I love you so much, Sugar. Even if you weren't a kick-ass elemental goddess... which is fuck-hot, by the way. Even if you weren't, though, I'd still love you just as much. Now, what would you like to do, Darlin'?"

I wrote: “I'm going to finish this thermos of milk, then I'm going outside to draw energy. When I come back in, I'm going to make love to my mates for hours. Then I'll meditate for a while before we open the back door for the wolves. I think they are taking that as their cue that it's clear to come up. No sooner did I open it this morning, than all four wolves came running. I told them that they could meet here around the same time. We can head up together after I eat, since I'm sure Esme and the girls will have the pack's breakfast about ready. I think she's running a mental tab of what they eat and how much... she'll probably end up taking over shopping. It's really sweet of her to do all that.”

"Yeah, it is, Kitten," Peter said, "I think she's really tryin' to prove to ya that ya can trust her again. They all are. I think ya should tell them in the mornin' about Texas. That might let them know ya care still without puttin' pressure on ya to talk right away. Also... I've been thinkin' about the babies. We don't know what the babies will be, so there's no way you’ll be able to go see Joe Shmoe M.D. You're gonna be a goddess vampire elemental, with unknown babies in your womb. We have no idea even how long the pregnancy will go or the rate of the babies growth or development afterward. I think it might be a good idea for us to ask Carlisle if he would be your doctor… take on carin’ for ya and the babies medically."

I nodded before writing: “He's the only one I would trust with us. He's an excellent doctor. He's technically still my doctor, anyway. Speaking of which, I just bet he's dying to do a workup on me to appease his curiosity. My physical changes altered me so much that I bet he's just bursting at the seams. I'll talk to him about it.”

"Little One, it probably wouldn't be a bad idea to let him. It may give us some idea of what's ahead for us," Peter suggested softly. Jasper and Char both agreed, so that was how I got roped into a complete workup by Dr. Carlisle Cullen.



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