Chapter 45: Needs and Instincts
A few minutes later, it was still quiet. I had another epiphany.
Damn, how many is that today? "I was physically already the goddess. She always said 'my physical transformation was complete'. She never said anything about mental... emotional. That's what this whole thing was about, wasn't it? To get me on her level emotionally... so that she could meld with me... and I would be wholly the goddess. Don't get me wrong. I'm not upset, but why couldn't you tell me? When did you know?"
Peter responded softly, "I got the feelin' this mornin' while you were giftin' Tanya and Kate. I told Jasper what I felt needed to be done. He agreed. I knew that if any of us told ya, ya woulda psyched yourself out, then never gotten to her level. The order for ya not to cum was to make ya vulnerable to the goddess emotionally. I knew if ya came before the wand was in, ya wouldn'a been vulnerable enough for the goddess to appear to ya durin' one of your orgasms, that I had to keep givin' ‘em to ya until we felt the change in ya. I'm sorry we kept it from ya Sugar, but my instincts were screamin' at me."
He kissed my hips, then the top of my mound. I moaned as I felt the slightest stirring of arousal. My head fell back as Char licked the hollow of my throat, sucking gently. Jasper tugged back slightly on my hair, making my head fall back more, causing me to moan louder.
My eyes rolled back in my head. I whimpered as Peter opened my legs at the knees, so that they fell open like a butterfly's wings. All three of them moaned as the scent of my arousal hit them, then Char and Jasper spread my folds, while Peter gently licked my clit, my folds, and both entrances.
My arousal was booming again, so I grabbed his hair, pulling hard to make him look at me. "No more teasing tonight. I can't take anymore of that. Make me cum for you, Peter... Now."
He moaned as he shoved his tongue in my pussy. Jasper venomed two fingers, then lightly circled my clit. The tingly warmth was rising again. I moaned while arching my back, Char and Jasper each taking the opportunity to latch onto a nipple.
I suddenly got the vision of the babies I had gotten before while feeling my breasts ache and tingle. Char and Jasper both moaned, wide-eyed, then sucked harder. I instinctively grabbed their heads while moaning out, "That's it. Drink from me until I cum. Drink from me."
They changed their sucking rhythm at the same time, so I relaxed into the feeling as Peter licked and fingered me. I felt something give way in me, then felt a rhythmic pulling in my breasts that matched their sucking. I moaned loudly, "Yes.... more. Don't stop until I cum... please."
They both nodded, then I felt them pull harder at the same time as Peter placed the wand back inside me. He turned the vibration on as he started a rhythm, flicking and sucking my clit in synch with his motions. I cried out, tightened my hands in Char and Jasper's hair, just as Peter made the wand thrust deep against my womb. I moaned, gasping as I came.
Char and Jasper stopped sucking, but continued by licking or flicking my nipples. I felt wetness, along with the ache deep inside my breast as my orgasm subsided. I looked at that breast to see a milky off-white colored liquid. I knew it wasn't their venom, as it didn't have the pearly sheen venom did.
Peter crawled up to it, wrapped his tongue around it, moaning. The vibrations shots straight to my core. Char had taken over where Peter left off, so she was working me quickly to another orgasm. I still had my fingers in Jasper's hair, so I tugged him back over. He immediately latched on, so did Peter. They moaned as Char licked my clit, tugging a little with her teeth. My hips arched up to her as she pushed the wand in deep, swirling it around inside me. I cried out, tightening my hands in Jasper and Peter's hair.
I rotated my hips as cried out again, gripping the boys' hair hard, telling them not to stop when I got another flash. "You need to bite just hard enough to break the skin around my nipples, but don't let the venom in my system. Do it when my orgasm hits, then draw two mouthfuls. When you're done, move back to take over for Char. She can draw a mouthful from each, then seal the wounds. You need to do this."
They both nodded as Char doubled her efforts. I screamed as my orgasm hit, their bites and slow pulls prolonging the pleasure of my orgasm. Char was slowly pulling then, which threw me into a new orgasm that rocked me to my core. I shuddered, whimpering as the orgasm subsided. They all stroked me, with Char and Jasper taking turns licking me clean.
When I was calmed down again, Jasper and Char were both kissing a hip. Peter was tracing the new bite mark on my left nipple. "It was for the babies," I whispered.
"If you hadn't done that, I wouldn't be able to nourish the babies when they came. Now they'll be able to nurse, get blood and milk from me. We need to tell the elders that they're wrong about when. I get pregnant a lot sooner than the end of the third battle. Maybe that was the case originally, but somewhere along the line, things all got sped up. I think it had to do with Alice and Edward keeping us apart. We weren't supposed to be apart for that long, so our relationship, the babies, needing Peter before it was time, and claiming Char... it all got sped up once we finally admitted our feelings, then made love that morning.”
I got a thoughtful nod from Jasper, so I continued, “I told you I wanted to talk to the three of you before we told everyone else about what I saw. I saw two of our babies. It was the first two born, and they were twins. They were nursing. I knew somehow that they needed both my milk and my blood to survive. I will need donated blood while I'm pregnant and nursing. As it is processed in my body, it will collect in the placentas and my womb while I'm pregnant. That will keep the babies healthy there. While I deliver, I'll need to feed on donated blood constantly. Most of that blood will collect in my breast milk. The rest will go to repairing anything after the birth. Other than those times, I will not need blood to survive as a vampire. I will feed on energy. When one of you hunts or feeds, I'll go with you, to feed on the energy in the body. Does that make sense so far?"
They nodded, then Char asked, "Will you still need energy while you're pregnant and nursing?"
I nodded, "The blood is only to sustain the babies. I'll still need energy to sustain myself. I won't want to drink from a human when I see them from day one. I will only crave donated blood while I'm pregnant and nursing. It's one of those, 'I don't want the tap, I want the bottle' things."
Jasper nodded, then whispered, "Do you know what the twins were... either gender or dna?"
I shook my head sadly, "I don't know gender or dna. I just know what I do from the flashes of visions. The thing is, I will be constantly nursing from now until the last baby is done. If I don't constantly have a small amount of blood in the milk between pregnancies, there won't be any to sustain the babies. The bites will eventually repair. By the way... Can I just say one thing?"
They nodded, so I moaned pitifully, "I can't wait until I get to feel love bites as a vampire. The feeling of your teeth was incredible. It didn't hurt one bit. I really want to feel it again. Christ, it makes me wet just thinking about it."
All three of them moaned, then I hopped of the bed. We had only been at it for about an 2 hours and 15 minutes, so I started the water in the shower.
I heard a knock on the front door before Jasper answered it. He called that Alice was here, so I told him to let her back if they were covered.
She had seen me naked a million times when I had my leg casted from the James mess, so there was nothing to hide from her. She walked in the open bathroom door just as soon as I finished putting the towels on the warming rack.
I heard Alice gasp, "Jesus, you're gorgeous!" then I turned to smile at her.
She gasped again as she raced to my side. She turned me to fully face her, then asked very softly, "Bella? Where did you get those?"
Shit, I forgot about my new bite marks.
I stroked her cheek while whispering, "We were going to tell everyone about the vision as soon as we had the chance. I had a vision of the babies. They need my blood and milk both to survive. By instinct, I told them what to do, and they did it. I was actually leaking milk during our time together. They just each latched onto a nipple, then I felt different all of a sudden. An ache deep in my breasts as they were pulling milk. I relaxed into the feeling of their rhythmic pulling. I knew they needed to draw blood and pull both. They each only took two mouthfuls. No venom even entered my system. It was only deep enough to break the skin, and it didn't hurt at all. The bite mark part is private for now, okay?"
She nodded, but acted like she wanted to touch the marks for a second. She turned away, so I said, "Ali, I'm really fine. Look."
I ran my fingers across the marks to show her they didn't hurt. Her eyes closed, then she turned to hop on the counter. I could have sworn I heard her breathing shudder for a second.
Hmm. What's that about?
I hopped in the shower as Jasper peeked in the door. I saw him quirk his eyebrow at Alice, then ask if everything was alright in here. She nodded as I said, "Yep. Fine as wine."
He opened the shower door before kissing me sensually, running his hand from my outer thigh up to my nipple slowly. He circled it, broke the kiss, then walked to the door, giving Alice another raised eyebrow. She shrugged, then he was out the open door.
I talked to her as I finished my shower. When I opened the door and stepped out, I went to grab one of the towels. Alice practically choked out, "I-I'll just wait for you inthelivingroom."
She ran her words together quickly at the end, dashing out of the room like it was on fire.
I dried off, plopped my hair up in a messy bun, then went into the bedroom to get dressed. I called to Jasper to bring me a water, then heard Alice say she'd meet us back at the house.
What is going on with her?!
I started slipping on a thong, then thought better about it. The color wasn't right. I slipped the capris on, which fit so perfectly. Jasper walked in before I got the top on, bending down to my nipple, suckling lightly. I felt that ache in my breast, so I said, "Try to see if you taste any blood. If you don't, we'll have to do the process over."
He dropped to his knees, latched on, then took a couple of slow long draws. He nodded, took one more pull, then licked when he unlatched. He moaned as he cradled my breasts, nuzzling his face in the valley between them, "God, you taste so amazin', Darlin'. Your milk tastes as sweet -and is just as filling- as blood. I don't hunger for your blood, but I could get addicted to nursin' from you if you let me."
I giggled, whispering, "Well then it's a good thing you'll need to keep doing it until the babies are born, huh."
His eyes went wide, so I nodded while smiling. "It won't take away from what the babies need from me. With twins, I'll need a constant supply flowing. I won't get that unless you three drink well from me on a daily basis. While the babies need me, you three are out of luck, but after they are old enough to stop, you'll have to start again. I know we have more than two children, so you'll need to keep drinking from me until I'm ready to give birth again."
Jasper smiled widely, "More than two for sure? Darlin', this is excellent news."
I smiled, then went on to tell him the rest. "That's not all, though, Cowboy. The best part, is if you each take the right amount from me a day, not only will it help for the babies, but you three won't need to hunt. I won't need transfusions or anything, since I won't actually be losing a lot of blood. Only a third of what you take in will actually be blood... my body replenishes quickly now, that the energy I draw will help in keeping my body where it needs to be. Your eyes, though. I don't know about those. How attached are you to the gold?"
He smirked, "I didn't mind the red eyes, just the negative emotions when I fed. I love them on Char and Peter, plus on you they’re down-right sexy as hell. As long as you won't be in pain when we drink from you, I'd be more than willing.”
He lifted his head to my nipple, licked it, then whispered, "May I?"
I gripped his hair, bringing him to my breast as I responded, "Please. I'll tell you when to stop."
I felt a tingling in that breast as he started to draw slowly. I relaxed into the sensation. He lifted us, sitting on the loveseat with me straddling him. I ran my fingers though his hair, watching him drink from me until I felt it was time for him to release that breast. I asked if he wanted to share or keep going. He offered to share. I looked toward the bed where I saw Peter and Char, then said softly, "Char, tonight is still our time when we get back. Would you mind if it was Peter's turn now, then you got everything later?"
She smiled widely, "He can most certainly have his turn now."
Jasper picked me up, then took Char into the shower with him as I straddled Peter's lap. He easily settled into suckling my other breast. He went to pull back at one point, but I held his head still. "Don't stop yet. Drink, Hun. I'll tell you when to stop. I promise. This needs to happen."
I shifted my legs around, removing my pants. He undid his zipper, pushed his pants to his knees, then I re-straddled him. I slowly slid down his length until my breast was level with his mouth. He wasn't drawing nearly as deeply as Jasper did, so it was taking longer than it should. "Peter look at me. My energy replenishes my blood, to keep me where I need to be. Take deeper pulls... don't be afraid. I know when you need to stop, so I'll tell you. Drink from me while you make love to me."
He moaned loudly, then took a deeper pull as he gently thrust up into me. When he seated himself, I swiveled and rocked my hips, seating him deeper inside me as we both moaned. "God, you feel so good, Peter. I need you deeper...please."
He took another pull, set both of my feet flat on the loveseat next to his hips, then grabbed my hips to stabilize me.
When he thrust deeply this time, I swiveled my hips, feeling him right where I needed him. I cried out with the pleasure of feeling him so deep inside me, then panted, "Right there. That's how deep I need you. I can feel you so deep. God, it feel amazing."
Peter moaned as he thrust again, rubbing the same spot. I whimpered in response, "Fuck, I gonna cum, Peter. Oh, yes. Pull deeply a few times when I cum, Baby. Ungh.."
I swiveled my hips as he pushed down on them, then cried out his name as I came. He took long pulls during my orgasm. When it subsided, I ran my fingers through his hair as I said, "Thank you, Peter. It feels much better now."
He licked both of my nipples before tugging gently with his teeth. I whimpered as I arched into him. He thrust up against me again, causing me to feel exactly how deep he was. I moaned, swiveling on top of him, begging him not to stop.
He started a decent pace, but the feeling was so intense that soon we both came. He was seated against my womb as I felt him shoot his cool seed in me. I sighed in content when my orgasm subsided.
For some reason, I felt like I needed Jasper to make love to me, too. I didn't want to leave Char out, though. Peter breathed in my ear, "She gets you alone tonight... I'll take care of her for now, so you can make love to Jasper."
I nodded, then kissed him slowly. He got up and went to Char, who was just coming out of the bathroom. He smirked at her, "I still need a shower... care to get wet again, Doll?"
She giggled as she turned back into the bathroom. Jasper laid me on the bed, kissing his way up my shins. He spread my legs, kissed his way up my thighs, licked my mound, then placed a kiss on both of my hip bones. I placed my legs up either side of his chest, then he gently raised me to place a fluffy pillow under my ass.
It raised me to the perfect height. He bent my legs back toward me, slowly thrusting in to the hilt. I moaned, widening my hips, then I felt him hit the same spot as Peter. I cried out, "Oh, God. Right there, Jazz. Don't stop. Please, don't stop."
He thrust slow and deep several times. I could feel every millimeter of him sliding inside me. He rubbed that same spot that Peter did each time, causing me to whimper or moan with every rub. Jasper leaned in to kiss me passionately, never faulting in his rhythm. It made him go just that tiny bit further.
He was rubbing harder against that spot, which drove me crazy. I exploded around his cock, "Yes... oh, Jazz! So good... Fuck, right there. Ohh!"
Jasper thrust several more times, which threw me into another orgasm. He came with me this time, as we both whimpered each other's names.
When we regained normal breathing, he slowly pulled out, then kissed my navel before getting up. I smiled at the sweetness of the gesture before asking for a cool washcloth to clean up with. Jasper went to remove the pillow from under me, but I instinctively said, "Leave it, please. I just want to lay like this and be for a minute."
He smiled, then went to get my washcloth. Just before he reached the open bathroom door, we both heard Char and Peter cumming together. I moaned at the image in my head. Jasper winked at me, nodding in agreement. He dashed in and right out, bringing the cool cloth to my face and neck as he returned to me.
I sighed in content, then suddenly felt the need to get to our four wolves. I needed to be near them for some important reason. I couldn't figure out what, though. Jasper finished washing me gently as he said, "I know you feel you have to be near the wolves. We can go as soon as we're dressed.”
Peter popped his towel-covered head into the bedroom, agreeing, "I feel it too, Sugar. Somethin' important will happen if we get to the pack as soon as possible. We need to go."
I rushed to get dressed, then we all left for the main house. We stopped when we neared Jake, who automatically went down on his belly. Instinctively, I climbed up, laid with my belly flat against his back, then hugged his neck. "Don't run, Jake. Walk slow... like you're trying to keep pace with a human.”
He nodded, but quirked an eyebrow. I nuzzled flatter against him, whispering, "Instinct."
He immediately started a slow pace. My mates stayed on either side of us touching me. The other three wolves were all flanking our rear. When we got to the house, Jake laid down flat slowly, then I carefully dismounted him.
I told Char to sit against the tree with her legs flat in front of her, then laid down on my back with my head on her legs. I called for Jake, who was still flat on the ground, so he crawled over to me.
I told him to lay his head on my chest and stomach carefully. He did; the warmth of his fur felt so good right now… so right. Like whatever was supposed to happen, would now.
Edward came over, quietly asking, "Are you okay, Bella?"
I whispered, "Yeah, just following instincts. Is Alice alright? She rushed out of the cabin in a hurry. I swear you would have thought the whole room was on fire. Did I do something wrong?"
Edward coughed, then said, "No, Bella. You did nothing wrong. Alice just had some things on her mind is all. I'm sure she'll tell you when she feels up to it."
I nodded as I pulled Jake's head into me a little more. The heat doubled, then I closed my eyes to revel in the feeling. I felt like I was floating, but I knew I couldn't be. I felt a change... something that felt good... natural. I smiled softly as I opened my eyes.
Jake looked at me from the corner of his eye. "Will you stay for a half hour? We can get up after that."
Jake closed his eyes in acceptance. "Thanks, Jake. You know how much I love you, right?"
He smiled his wolfy grin, so I playfully tugged his ear. "Yeah, I know. You're the best, so I can't help but love you. You are the best. The best wolf brother I could hope for."
Jake rumbled in his chest with his wolfy smile on his face. I knew he was happy. His heat level rose again.
I called for Edward's attention. "Translate please," then I turned to Jake. "Jake, are you feeling sick?"
Jake laughed, then Edward said, "He says 'you a siwwy wittle wabbit'. Wolves don't get sick."
I smacked Jake's ear, causing him to fake yelp. "I know that was fake... shut it. I'm serious, Jake. Your temperature has gone up more than once since we headed back here. I need to make sure you're okay."
Jake snorted as his temperature rose again. "That. That right there. You're temperature rose again."
He looked at me, rolling his eyes just as Edward translated. "He says every time he feels you need him, it automatically happens. He laid down immediately when you saw him, because he knew you needed to lay on his back. He tried not to jostle you when you told him to walk slow, because he just felt strongly that he shouldn't. He crawled to you, because he knew you needed him down on his belly, just not what for. He closed his eyes when you asked for more time, because he knew your instincts would tell him when it was time. His instincts are telling him to stay where he is and keep you warm... very warm. When he senses your body needs more warmth, his temperature is automatically adjusting to your needs."
I was shocked. "Isn't that dangerous for him, though?"
Sue popped over to say, "No, it's not dangerous for him or you. He was born to protect the goddess. His needs adapt to yours. He can become as cool or hot as you need him to be, yet it will not damage him."
I nodded just as Jake's temperature rose again.
Sheesh, is he hot. Like melting ice in a boiling pot of water hot. Melting ice... Melting... Ice... Melting... Holy shit-balls, Batman!
I smiled widely, but Jasper asked, "You had another epiphany, didn't you, Darlin'?"
I grinned from ear to ear, "I won't say until I know for sure."
Peter added, "And when will you know for sure?"
I shook my head, "Nut-uh. Not getting it out of me. You'll just have to wait like everyone else. Alice, if you know anything, you best keep your mouth closed!"
I heard her say as she ran to Edward's side, "Oh, shit. Bella I kinda already told them. It's why I rushed out of the cabin earlier."
Edward, Jasper, Char, and Peter all gasped while smiling widely.
Jasper and Peter rushed to take a position on one side of me, placing their hands gently on my side. "Really!?" they both exclaimed. Char was smiling softly at me, running her fingers through my hair.
Jake looked questioning, so I said, "I'm not sure yet. It has something to do with Jake's heat melting ice. Think about it. That was the part we couldn't figure out. I have to lay still to let Jake take care of me right now. If this works, we should know soon."
Jake's temperature suddenly skyrocketed. I moaned as I felt my insides heat drastically. I closed my eyes, right away seeing the vision of me feeding our twins.
My eyes shot open; the biggest grin came across my face. Jasper and Peter both shot up away from me, whooping and hugging each other. Char started singing a lullaby to me. Jake caught on then, so he smiled widely. "Jake says he gets to be the best uncle, since he helped in the making."
I heard everyone in the yard gasp before crowding around us. "Please, everyone sit. I can't move yet, and neither can Jake. If we do, everything is screwed. Please sit, then we'll all fit the puzzle pieces together."
They all sat and quieted down quickly. "I guess I should tell them everything, right? Everything? They'll know soon enough, when you three aren't hunting."
Jasper nodded, so I started at the beginning. "Very recently, I had a vision of nursing twins. I couldn't tell what gender they were, or what their dna included. I did know, instinctively, that they needed both blood and milk from me to survive. That means they have Daddy's vampire in them for sure. I also know this is not the only children we will have. I don't know how many more for sure, just more."
Knowing I had everyone's attention, I continued, "When we were having our private time earlier, I felt a sudden ache when they both latched onto me. Private, I know... but it has a lot to do with what I need to say, so sorry for the details. I saw their eyes go wide as they sucked a bit harder, so I relaxed into the feeling. I knew they needed to both bite me there at a certain time, having something to do with the babies being able to get both the milk and blood they would need from me. I told them to bite and draw twice, then let Charlotte draw once from each side before sealing the wounds. No venom entered my system. Everything went fine, then I went to get in the shower. Alice showed up with my clothes, so I had them let her back. She had seen me tons of times before because of helping when my leg was casted, so I saw no issue with letting her back to talk to me."
Alice jumped in. "At first sight, I was captivated. She was stunning. Then I noticed the bite marks and got close to her. I asked her, so she told me it was to prepare for when the babies needed her. She explained it all, but as she did, her scent hit me. She was really fertile. So fertile I had the urge to mate with her. It shocked me, so I tried to move away to sit on the counter. Jasper felt what I did, so he came to see if everything was okay. He opened the shower door, then it hit him. They shared an erotic kiss as he ran his fingers up her side, then he quirked his eyebrow at me again. I knew he had questions. He left the room. Right when she opened the door to get out, I had a vision. I knew that if I didn't say anything, they would all stop intimacy with her until she passed her fertile point.”
Alice shook her head, then said seriously, “There was something about it, though. She wasn't just fertile. She was exploding fertility. I decided to mention it to Jazz, Peter, and Charlotte. I dashed out of the room, telling her I would wait in the living room. I rushed through my vision with them, then told them what I thought. He said Peter and Bella had both mentioned the timeline of their relationship being rushed, too. I think it was my fault for Edward and I keeping them apart so long. There's not enough time to get everything done now, so it’s all rushing to catch up to where it's supposed to be at this point. I convinced them to let things happen naturally, not purposefully stay away. If it's meant to be, it will be. Then I hurried home to let things take their own course."
I took back over from here. "Jasper came into the bedroom as I was dressing. When he licked his bite mark, I had the instinctive need for him to see if he would get both blood and milk when he drew. He agreed to try. When he drew, he nodded. The ache deep in my chest lessened the smallest bit with his draw, so I told him not to stop... that I would tell him when. He drew deeply for a small while. When he was done, Peter drew from the other side. Jasper and Char went to get a shower then, but I felt the need to make love to Peter. We did, but when we were calming afterward, I felt that same need to be with Jasper. Peter still needed a shower, so he grabbed up Char and they took a shower together as I made love to Jasper. Soon after, I felt a huge need to be near the wolves... like something important would happen if we got to the wolves quickly. We rushed to get ready. When I saw Jake, he instantly dropped to his belly for me. I instinctively climbed on his back, flattening my belly against him. I told him to walk slowly, like he was trying to keep pace with a human. I didn't know why, but it felt right.”
I ran my fingers through Jake's fur, then said, “When we got here, I had Char sit like this so I could lay my head on her legs, then called Jake to me. He crawled over on his belly. I told him I needed him to lay his head to cover my chest and belly. His temperature rose several times, so I was starting to worry. I had Edward translate, but when Jake's temperature skyrocketed, I compared it to melting an ice cube in a pot of boiling water. That stuck and turned over in my head. We never figured out how the goddess' mojo would make Jasper's and Peter's stuff work, with them being vampires. Melting an ice cube. Jacob's heat is melting what needs to be unfrozen. If the unfreezing takes, they will still have venom, so still part baby vampires. But the fertilizing and implanting will be quick. I should know for sure if it took in less than 30 minutes. Jake and I can't move until I know the implant took."
I took a breath before continuing, "The thing with the blood, milk and bite marks is this. I won't be breast feeding like normal mom. They will be getting blood and milk when they nurse. To keep the blood flowing with the milk, and keep my milk production up high enough for both the twins, all three of my mates need to take from me through the day. The fraction of it is 1/3 blood with 2/3 milk. There is more milk than blood, but the babies need to get them at the same time. By them taking from me on a regular basis, though, none of my mates will need to hunt. None of them hunger for my blood, and none of their eyes turn black when they take from me. Jasper's eyes may turn red with time, but it's because he's getting my blood. It doesn't hurt me in the least when they draw, and that was the thing that bothered Jasper. He's not killing, he's not feeling a victim's pain, but he's preparing the way for our babies with Peter and Char.”
At a slight nod from everyone for me to continue, I said, “They will need to draw from me daily until I give birth, then the babies will take over. When the babies are old enough to stop nursing, my mates will have to step back in. If they don't, the blood won't flow when the next baby needs it. While I'm pregnant and nursing, I will need to drink donated blood. A lot of it when I'm pregnant and nursing the babies, but minimal while it's Jasper, Peter, and Char after the babies stop. My turning is still on schedule. I will be turned while pregnant, but it will not harm the babies. It will make them stronger. I need the blood, because when I am no longer making my own, the donated blood will process through my body. Most will be drawn right to the placentas and womb to keep the babies strong. The other part will be what my mates draw on a daily basis. Once I start nursing the twins after birth, the blood need will lessen some, but I will still need it. It will then be drawn to the feeding area. A small amount right after birth will help with my birthing recovery. I think that's all. Any questions?"
Carlisle was in doctor mode. "I can understand wanting donated blood because it's human, but would animal blood work?"
I shook my head. "I won't be hunting in the normal sense when I turn. I will be drawing the energy from your hunts right after you feed. I will not need any blood after I am able to stop nursing altogether. I don't need the blood. That's strictly for the babies to survive. For some reason, the animal blood won't be compatible with me... whether it's because it's animal and not human, I'm not sure. I just know that it won't mesh with me, nor will it give the babies what they need."
He nodded, "I have many connections to donated blood, and can started storing it right away."
I smiled softly, "Thank you, Carlisle."
He nodded, then asked, "Why is your blood intake so low when you are between nursing a baby and pregnant? I understand why it's so high then. My question is wouldn't you be needing more blood with three adults partaking?"
I smiled. "There are properties in the milk itself that fulfill their needs, but they still need blood. A minimal amount of blood will keep the channel open for there to be blood for the next baby. Between my milk production staying high and the small amount of blood, Jasper, Peter, and Char will be fulfilled."
Jasper stepped in here. "I feel more full now than I have since I glutted myself on that whole field of deer and that bear in '96. That is just from a small amount. I can't imagine how full I'll feel drawing from her on a daily basis."
Peter and Char both agreed. I was scratching Jake's head when the next question came. Esme asked, "You will need the help of the wolves each time to get pregnant, won't you?"
I tugged Jake's ear playfully, saying, "This guy here will be with me the whole way, right?"
He gave a wolfy smile, so Edward said, "Jake says you'll have a hard time getting rid of him even after you are done having babies."
I laughed and scratched behind his ear. He wagged his huge tail across the ground, almost swiping Eleazar’s legs from under him. "Jesus, Jake! Good thing for vampire reflexes, or Eleazar would be on his ass right now. Your tail needs to be registered as a deadly weapon."
Jake barked, then Edward said, "Eleazar, since Jake can't do it himself right now, he asked me to tell you he is sorry for tail-swiping you."
Jake curled his tail up around his hind leg on the ground. I brushed my fingers through his fur, then felt his temperature skyrocket even more. "Holy shit, that's hot!"
I moaned, then closed my eyes and smiled brightly. "About five more minutes like this, then we should know, Jake. You ready to get up and run yet?"
Edward filled in the pitiful look Jake gave me. "He says no. He wants to stay near you. He needs to stay near you."
I nodded as I stroked his fur softly, "Okay, Jake. I need to follow my instincts, and so do you. I'll need to draw energy after this, but I want to stick close to the property for tonight. I want to take it easy, stay off my feet to make sure this takes."
Edward nodded seriously at Jake, "Jake fully agrees. That's why he won't go play. He wants to make sure here's near you incase you need him again tonight."
I nodded, "Understandable."
Just then, I heard Rose's voice ask very softly. "When you're turned... will it be the same process to get pregnant? I mean you'll be frozen, too. How will you be able to carry if you can't change?"
I smiled "I won't be a normal vampire, Rose. I'll still be part pure goddess. Other than the feeding, there will be several things about my transformation and newborn year alone that will not be normal. The goddess has mojo I don't even understand. She fully melded with me mentally and emotionally this morning. I no longer have to look internally for answers. They just come to me. Speaking of which, Alice. You need to go online to the distributer you get some of the fabrics and notions from. They have a total goddess fabric, as well as several fabrics for the other four goddesses... 60% off, and they are the quality you want. Buy up all that you can, because we'll have to think about maternity clothes."
I heard every voice in the back yard squeal or cheer as Jake looked at me from the corner of his eye. "Yes Jake, I'm pregnant. Thank you... so much. You can stay there if you feel the need, but you don't have to. I know I need major foodage, though."
Esme rushed, "Your dinner is in the warmer. I'll get it for you now. There are two large fish fillets, caviar, two types of fruit smoothies, a small bowl of fruit with fresh coconut and chocolate covered cashews, plus a small portion of yams."
I smiled, "Wow, Esme. That all sounds really good right now. I bet I could eat every bit of it, too."
She smiled widely. "Well you're feeding an army now, Dear. You'll need to eat everything you can get your hands on every second of the day to produce enough milk to sustain everyone."
I nodded, "Don't I know it. We'll end up buying that whole foods market and the chocolatier before it's over with. I might have to take stock out on the farmers and the nut company, too."
Jake yowled something, then Edward translated, "He says that all of the families of the wolves will be wanting to bring you things from their gardens. He wants to know if you'd accept their gifts."
I smacked Jake on the head, "I won't turn them away, Jake. It's food, which I need, not something outlandish like a sports car. I don't need those fancy things. I need my mates, my families, my elements and things of that nature. If any one wants to gift money or other things like that, they can gift them to the community center or the families in need on the rez."
Emmett said, "Little bit? Charlie should be back soon. Are you going to tell him about the babies?"
My eyes snapped around in panic. "Sue?"
Sue walked over to me, then crouched down. "Why are you not with Dad? Where is he?"
She brushed my hair from my face before saying softly, "None of the elders were quite ready to leave, and Jake didn't want to call shift change until you were done with your private time. The wolves wanted to help Charlie, so they decided to be the ones to go ahead and take him to the house and the station. Carlisle lent them two of the SUVs. Your dad is heavily guarded. He got the things he needed from his house, plus some important photos and things, then they put in for his leave time, which was accepted. They are on their way back now, only ten minutes out. Don't stress yourself, Honey. You need to stay calm for those babies trying to grow."
I nodded, "Are the other elders still here?"
I heard shuffling, then they all appeared. "Kind of unexpected, huh?"
They laughed as Sam said, "You weren't supposed to be pregnant and nursing for all three battles, Sister. You were supposed to have them after the battles were won. Yes, definitely unexpected."
I nodded. "Alice is right, though. I have a gut feeling everything is on fast forward because Jasper and I didn't get together when we were fated to. I don't blame her, though. Everything worked out, but we just have to be careful with the bambinos. Let's just hope my shield knows to keep those two safe, and my powers don't decide to go on the fritz while I'm pregnant."
Sam laughed. "What about the cravings?"
I smirked, "Only craving I'll get is for donated blood. When that craving hits, I better get it soon."
He quirked an eyebrow, "Wrath of the pregnant goddess?"
I smiled widely, "Yup."
Everyone agreed as Esme came out with my food. I looked back over to Emmett. "Em, to answer your question, yes. I will tell Charlie as soon as he gets back. It will be hard to keep it from him for long, plus we promised each other that there wouldn't be any holding out in our new improved relationship. Speaking of which, I promised Charlie I would tell him about the whole Phoenix mess, but Jasper and Edward would know pretty much all of the story. We should do that soon. I don't want him to keep hearing bits of things he doesn't know about. It makes it look like I don't want him to know. Really, there just hasn't been time to tell him all of it."
I sighed when Jake's body heat cooled a slight bit. "Thanks, Jake. You were kind of getting a little uncomfortable."
I put my hand to his muzzle, so he licked it. "I love you too, Jake... and I know you'd do anything for me."
Edward looked at me curiously. I smiled as I filled in his unasked questions. "Some of his mannerisms as a wolf are similar to his ones as a human. A lick to my hand in wolf form is equal to a kiss on the top of my head, or my forehead, as a human. He only does that in protector mode... big brother mode. The look in his eyes when he yowls tells me whether he's excitedly talking a mile a minute or bitching me out for something. A certain way that he stands in human form tells me he's in a playful mood. Same in wolf form. Sue said that he was born to be the goddess' protector. If I had my choice of protector, it would still be him. We know each other backwards and forwards, all the ins and outs. I couldn't have chosen anyone more worthy of it, either. He's stuck with me through everything. We made mud pies together when we were little, then we took walks on first beach, just talking about everything under the sun when I returned to Forks. He's my protector, but he also my brother."
Jake grumbled, so Edward translated, "He says to stop getting all mushy on him. He's keeps repeating something in Quileute, but he says you're disrupting him."
Sue asked what it was. Edward repeated the lines Jake was saying. "It's an old Quileute prayer for a safe pregnancy. If he would move from her stomach, he'd be able to do it properly, but I have a feeling he'll stay there until you make him get up, Bella."
I smiled as I rubbed the top of Jake's muzzle. "He's fine, Sue. It's comforting. I'm really hungry smelling this food, though. Jazz? Will you help please?"
He smiled, laying down on his side next to me. Jasper cut my food, then started feeding me the most delicious fish I had ever tasted. I moaned loudly. As soon as I swallowed, I said, "Holy crow, Esme. That is so good. What did you do to it?"
She smiled. "The elders sat down with us girls during your private time, to fill us in on your diet changes. We'll have to see now that you're pregnant, if anything changes."
I shook my head, "I don't think it will. I'll let you know if I have really odd cravings, though."
Jasper gave me the tip of the bendy straw, then I took a long sip of my smoothie. "Another hit, Esme. The smoothie with the pink straw."
She nodded her head as Jasper fed me another bit of fish. So good.
I ate some of my little bowl of fruit, then had to beg Jasper for the yams. He was holding out on me, but I wasn't having it. "Jasper Whitlock, you fork over those yams right this minute, or no sex until after.."
Right then, Charlie and the wolves showed up. I whispered to him the rest of the sentence. "..the babies are born."
I looked at him scoldingly, causing him to hurry to give me a huge bite of the yams.
"You look cozy. Did you have a quiet time away from the crowd?"
He bent down to kiss my cheek, which prompted me to say, "I sure did, Grandpa."
I smiled widely as his eyes got wide. I nodded, then he seriously jumped in the air and whooped like a 14-year-old. "When? How? Why so soon? Wait... Are you sure? How soon can you tell with the goddess thing?"
I giggled, "Dad! Slow down. Have a seat with me. Jasper and I will fill you in while he feeds me more of those yams."
All the vampires laughed, since they had heard the last part of my sentence. Jake's heat wave went down another level, so I patted his nose in appreciation. "When? Right now... the twins are fertilized and implanted, all within the last hour. Jake here, is my incubator. See how he's laying on me covering my whole stomach? Jasper and Peter's little swimmers are frozen, just like them. That's the part we couldn't figure out. How if they were frozen, we could have any babies..."
"Well, soon after we were intimate this afternoon, I felt the need to be near the wolves. I felt like if I got to the wolves soon enough, something important would happen. Jake felt like I needed him, so we were both pretty much going on instinct. He came to me on his belly, I crawled up and laid my tummy flat against his back, then he slowly walked us here. I had Char sit like this, then I laid down as I am. I felt like I still needed Jake, so I called him over to have him lay like this. He's been here ever since.”
Charlie patted Jake on the head, then nodded for me to continue. “At one point I thought something was wrong because his temp kept rising, but Sue explained that he was born to be my protector… that whatever I needed, he would instinctively do for me. I compared his heat to melting an ice cube in boiling water, then it clicked. Melting an ice cube. Melting the frozen swimmers. So I smiled, knowing what was possibly happening. Jasper caught on to my epiphany. I told him to wait like everyone else because I wasn't sure yet. I happened to tell Alice not to say anything, in case she had a vision, but that was blown before we even made love. Alice caught my scent, knew I was fertile... reallly fertile. She told them to let whatever was going to happen, happen... not stay away from me. They didn't want to risk anything knowing I was fertile. Anyway, Alice's confession ruined epiphany 100 today, so they all caught on to what was happening. Cheers and congratulations all around, and you're going to be a Grandpa."
He laughed a deep belly laugh. "Way to tell a story, Princess. Twins? Really?"
I smiled widely while nodding. Jake's body temp went down another couple of notches as I played with his paw. He smiled his wolfy grin at me like he wanted to play. "Go play, Jake. I'm staying right here, not moving. I promise."
He scowled at me, but I said, "I swear on the sacred mud pie, Jake. Go play for a while. Celebrate with the pack. You did a really awesome thing today."
His scowl lightened, then turned to a soft smile. He touched his nose to my tummy, then licked my hand, "I love you too, Jake."