Elemental Goddess by wizardtho
Chapter 22: Of Goddesses and Meditation
I was looking down at my caramel candies, but I could see that Jasper and Peter were looking at each other intently. “Okay, you two. I know you have something going on in those heads. Tell me, please. No secrets between us, remember?”
Jasper took my hand, so I looked up at him. “The other night when I called you my goddess during our lovemaking? Well, after you fell asleep, I was thinking that you seemed to be more beautiful every day, your sensuality becoming more pronounced. Like a true goddess. Then it clicked in my head, so I called Peter immediately to ask him to check into any prophecies of goddesses and elementals. You know that there is a prophecy of a true elemental who can control all four elements. It's of you, Darlin'. The shaman Peter talked to believes so, also. The complete prophecy is known by a vampire that the shaman knows.”
I nodded for him to continue, so he said seriously, “The thing is, Darlin', we think that the only elemental that could truly control all the elements is a goddess. A true goddess. The shaman believes that you are the true elemental, so it wouldn't be a stretch at all to believe that you're a goddess. You've been exhibiting a more and more qualities of one every day. Then you just said 'my inner goddess'. If I’m right, I believe that your inner goddess has been trying to push through. The instincts, the sensuality, the changes to your physical being, the singing and it's effects on us. It all adds up quite easily, now that I look at it clearly.”
Blank. Frozen. What. The. Fuck?
“Wait. What? No. I couldn't... but... and then... how... and... oh, my goddess.” My voice had gotten lower with each segmented thought, the last part coming out as a shocked whisper.
The realisation hit me as my inner goddess bowed to me. “Holy shit, she agrees!”
They looked at me, waiting for an explanation. “I was saying in that fucked up non-sentence that I couldn't be a goddess... but the changes happening... and then you called me goddess on several occasions... and how I'm sweeter every time you taste me... and my fruit/nut/fish diet... and oh, my goddess. Then I closed my eyes to take a breath, but my inner goddess fucking bowed to me! She agrees. Holy Christ! I'm a goddess? What now? This is too much. I didn't ask for all this. What are we going to do?”
I was majorly starting to panic, but Jasper grabbed my face to make me look at him. “Look at me, Darlin'. Concentrate on your breathing. Slow... deep... breaths. In and out real slow. That's it. Keep going, Darlin'. In... out... In... out. Now, I want you to close your eyes… concentrate on your inner goddess. Let her speak to you. Open yourself to hear what she wants to tell you. She will let you know what you need to do. Concentrate on only her for a minute. Let her take you where she needs to. I'll keep you grounded, Darlin'.”
I moved my stuff, crawling over to straddle his lap. I placed his hands on my hips, rested mine on his chest muscles, took a few deep breaths, then closed my eyes. I immediately saw my goddess in the Lotus pose. She nodded to me.
I went to sit facing her, mirroring her position with our knees almost touching. I opened myself completely to her, then started hearing whispers. She sounded and looked exactly like me, but with some differences. Her breasts were heavier, fuller by maybe a half to a full cup size or slightly more, plus her hips were a bit wider.
She stood in front of me for my inspection. Her features flowed smoothly like water, but had an incredible power underlying the surface. Her hair was to her tailbone, flowing free and beautiful. Chocolate waves with tons of red and blonde highlights. She turned around for me, moved her hair over her shoulder for me to spy the most beautiful design trailing down her spine.
From top to bottom, it had to be as long as my forearm. My element, Jasper's, Peter's, and finally Charlotte's, with a gorgeous vine scroll weaving in almost a double infinity design through the space between and around the elements. Our names were the same vine design near our elements... like they grew from the vine infinity.
She had the most perfect legs and ass. No plastic surgeon could make someone that beautiful. Her every cell was perfect.
She turned back around to sit in her previous position, then the whispers grow louder. I concentrated on them, heard myself speaking through her lips. It was my voice, but not. It was a melody weaving through a melody inside the most erotic and sensual song.
I concentrated on what she was saying, “Jacob. He will know the prophecy. You must not go to him to ask until you have the complete design. You must go before the transformation is complete. Any later will be too late. You will need your bracelet on when you see him. It will be hard for him to come to terms with your changes until he sees your bracelet. You are the Goddess Elemental, and I am you. Center yourself in your mates. Be well. Come to me any time you need me. Let us meditate for a while, then you will see yourself as you truly are.”
I don't know how long we meditated, but when we finished, she bid me well, bowed to me, then disappeared. I took a deep breath, letting it out before slowly opening my eyes.
It was dark out. Wow. What. The. Fuck.
I heard Peter and Jasper both let out a breath. “Are you with us, Darlin'?”
I nodded as I whispered, “Water. Peach. Thirsty.”
I downed it in less than a minute, then asked for the raspberry. I finished that off, so he handed me the last 2 bottles. I drank one just as fast as the last 2, then finally felt like I could slow down to talk. “Why is it dark out? How long was I out of it?”
Jasper said slowly, “It's 8 pm Darlin'. You've been with your goddess since 11 am. I knew you were okay because I could feel everything from you, but you had us worried when you passed the 3 hour mark. By the 6th hour mark, we were hoping you didn't get trapped. I was tempted to try and jolt your emotions to break you out of it.”
I shook my head, “No. Don't do that unless you feel me in complete panic or my life is in peril. I was totally safe. She showed me my true self, told me what I had to do for now, then we meditated. I didn't realise we meditated for that long. I'm sorry you were worried. Please know that I feel so much better after I spent the meditation time with her.”
In an almost awed tone, I explained, “She was utterly exquisite, Jasper. She looked like me, but different. Her skin was slightly luminescent, hips wider, breasts larger, legs and ass a plastic surgeon couldn't recreate, muscle tone impeccable, hair down to her tailbone with tons of red and blonde highlights, as well as smooth flowing features, but they definitely told of power.”
They looked about as awed as I felt, but I continued, “She is me. I'm just unfinished right now. She showed me the elements on her back... mine aren't complete yet. There is more to it than missing Char's element, though. My design won't be complete until there is a vine scroll work weaving in a double infinity pattern around the elements, connecting them all. Plus, all of our names seemed like they grew from the vines, and were written in the same vine work next to each of our elements. Once that is complete, we have to go to La Push. Jacob knows of the prophecy of the Goddess Elemental, but he will need to see me wearing my bracelet when he see my elements. He'll tell us what is told in the prophecy, but we must not go until after my goddess transformation is complete and before my turning. She stressed that. As soon as the design is complete, we must go. If not, it will be too late. I don't know what for, though. Jasper, I'm scared of how powerful I'll be.”
I took a deep breath as I remembered, then continued, “During the meditation, she showed me images of my powers... of me using them, controlling them. It was quite humbling, even forgetting the fact that it was me doing it. I got flash after flash of the different powers, the shields, me bending the elements to my will. My every will. Flowers blooming in the wake of my footsteps, fire erupting at the snap of my finger, wind blowing massive amounts of debris from my way, water rising from a calm ocean up to touch my fingers at the top of a cliff.”
I took a breath to calm myself, then said seriously, “All this will happen, Jasper. All of it. It's all inside me, trying to come out. That's what the episodes are. When I'm stressed or a certain emotion takes over completely, my powers try to surface. Once my transformation is complete, I will need to learn how to control them, so I don't have the episodes every day. I think that the wolves are to help train me. I think that's why we have to go to them immediately. I have to make sure I'm wearing my bracelet. She told me that it would be hard for Jacob to come to terms with my changes until he sees it. We won't get any help or information from him until then. We have to get it from Forks, make sure it's fixed asap.”
Jasper hugged me tight as I laid my head on his chest to look at Peter. I held my hand out to Peter, then he squeezed it gently before he kissed my fingertips. “Darlin', I was gonna surprise you, but now that I know what needs to be done, I'll tell you. I had Peter make sure there was nothing left in your truck that you'd want. He found the bracelet and a few other things. I hid the bracelet in a hidden compartment in this truck. I was going to have it fixed for you, because it smelled like you wore it a lot, like it was special to you. I didn't know that the dreamcatcher was blessed by the elders, but I did smell Jacob's scent faintly on the wolf. I realised then that you were friends with the pack leader. Before that, all I knew was that you had friends on the reservation. I didn't know it was the wolf leader. No wonder Edward was jealous. He was afraid you would want the wolf.”
I giggled, “No way would I want Jake that way. He's like my brother. The whole pack is my family. I have three mates, I definitely don't need to add any more.”
He laughed too, then Peter joined in. I was suddenly starving for the candy I didn't get to eat earlier. I sat up to look around. I found the candy next to Peter on the seat, so I snatched it up. I got back in my seat between them, quickly settling into my candy.
After a bag of caramel chews and 2 packs of Rolos, I was ready for something to drink, as well as a huge bowl of fruit. I felt so hungry. I turned around, bending over the seat to reach the coolers. I grabbed a sport bottle of almond milk, a large Tupperware bowl of fruit, then a container of caviar. I also grabbed the crackers, plus a mint and dark chocolate bar. I really wanted some coffee though.
As I turned around, I kissed Peter's cheek, “Can we make a pit stop at a coffee shop somewhere? I want coffee, but we didn't bring any thermoses. Plus, I really need a human moment and to stretch my legs.”
He smiled as he stroked my cheek, “Of course, Kitten. Are ya really well? Ya had me scared for a little while."
He paused for a second, then sounded almost shy as he asked, "Would ya mind if Jasper takes over drivin' when we stop? I feel the need to hold ya for a while.”
I smiled widely. “I can think of nothing I'd like better. I'll even let you feed me if you wish.”
He nodded enthusiastically.
We pulled into Starbucks, then all got out. I headed straight for the bathroom to take care of my business. I washed my hands and face, then returned to my men. There wasn't a line, so we went right up. I ordered a Vanilla Bean Frappuccino and an Iced Cinnamon Dolce Latte. Peter paid, then we were out the door and on the road again.
I was straddling Peter's lap, the open food next to us, while he was feeding me fruit and chocolate with his fingers. He was placing caviar onto the crackers, feeding those to me, too. I drank my Vanilla Frappuccino first. By the time all the food was done, I started on my Cinnamon Latte.
Peter had lifted the back of my shirt, and was tracing my elements silently. He was deep in thought. I just wanted to make quiet sweet love to him. I kissed him softly, but he went to move his hand. I stopped him, whispering as I put his hand back, “Shh, don't stop. I just want to make love to you. Keep tracing.”
I kissed him again -a long, sweet kiss you get lost in- as his fingers teased my spine. I lifted my shirt and bra off, then slid around to pull my skirt and thong off. I lifted his shirt over his head, then unbuttoned and unzipped his jeans, gripping them in my fingers to glide them over his hips. I got them down to his calves, then crawled back onto him.
Running my fingers through his hair, I knew that he needed me like this, quiet and gentle... reassuring him I was okay, that I loved him. I whispered, “Peter, Baby. Look at me. Look deeply for yourself and know that we're fine.”
He let out a breath before looking. He smiled almost immediately, then shuttered out a choked breath. He would be crying, if possible, but I knew they were happy tears. He was scared of losing me after everything that's happened. I kissed him, tracing the lines of his chest and abs. He instantly purred for me, kissing repeatedly along my shoulder and neck.
While his one hand was still tracing my elements, the other glided like the smoothest silk over my every curve. He circled around my nipples teasingly, but didn't touched them. He softly ran his fingers over my mound, but didn't delve deeper. He traced the heaviness of my breasts before spanning his hand across my lower stomach. He looked sad for a second, but quickly recovered.
He placed his arm around me and up into my hair, kissing me tenderly again. I lifted myself, positioned, then slowly... achingly slowly... slid down on his length. We sighed into each others mouths when I was fully seated. My arms went over his shoulders to the middle of his back, trying to pull him as close to me as possible. Both of his hands moved to grip me tightly to him, wrapping around me to cradle my neck and ass. Our chests were pressed tightly together, and as we moved together, they made a wonderful friction against my nipples.
We made love slowly, teasingly, sweetly, wholly. In those moments we were connected so fully, that the world outside of us didn't exist.
When we came together, it was with small whimpers and sighs into each others parted mouths. Our orgasms were like a cleansing of everything. We didn't need words to know that the other felt the same.
I curled up on his chest, still fully seated on him, to take Jasper's hand. He kissed my fingers and smiled at us. He held my hand as he continued to drive, with Peter tracing my elements. We were all quiet for a few minutes, then Jasper said to Peter, “I feel the same way, Pete. I know what it meant, and I agree.”
I was confused. “I think I will let this one slide, and you two just tell me when you're ready. I'm too content to worry about it right now.”
They both told me they loved me as I laid my head back on Peter's chest. I stayed like that for about 45 minutes, then felt a huge cramp. I bolted upright, grabbing my stomach. Peter froze in fear, so I tried to calm him. “I just need to move. I got a cramp, and I need to get into my purse for the Midol. Then, I'm going to find a comfy pair of pj shorts and a cami.”
I slowly tried to move, but flinched as another cramp hit. My period was less than a full day away at this rate. Peter saw, then gently flipped us around so I was laying with my head in Jasper's lap and my legs were where Peter was sitting. It didn't even feel it when he slipped out of me. He already had his jeans back up, but they weren't zipped.
“Just stay still. I'll get the pills and clothes. Please lay still. I don't like ya hurtin',” Peter whispered as he placed a kiss over my heart.
He carefully leaned over the seat, looked through the clothes, then handed me a very soft cami and boyshort set. Then he came back with the pills and a juice. He took the clothes from me to hand me the pills and juice. I popped 2 Midol before drinking half the juice.
Peter very lovingly got me dressed, then sat back down, placing my legs on top of his. I was laying on my back now, with my head still in Jasper's lap, his fingers stroking through my hair. Peter was trailing one hand up my legs while he placed the other gently between my hips. I sighed at the cool feeling of his hand, so he stroked gently, slightly massaging as he did. “That feels good... your touch... your massage.”
Jasper reached behind him, grabbed the duffle bag, then held it above me for Peter to get into. The way these two didn't have to even say anything to communicate was amazing.
Peter had his hand in the bag, asking me which one I preferred. I told him I wanted the one of him and Jasper, so he took it from the bag. Jasper dropped it back behind us on the floor as Peter opened the bottle. He carefully moved my inside leg to place the foot behind his back, then he turned so his back was against the window. He wrapped my inside leg around his hip so my foot was in the space behind his back. My outside knee ended up hooked over his leg. He was now in the perfect position to reach my whole front.
He lifted my cami to just under my breasts, then lowered my boyshorts to below my pubic bone. He drizzled a small amount on my lower stomach before gliding his hands through it, running them gently from my pubic bone all the way up to my ribs. His hands were large enough that he spanned across my flesh easily. I sighed in content as I closed my eyes. “Thank you, Baby. This feels so good. I love you both so much. You know with how much my cramps are hurting, my period is less than a full day away. Will either of you want to hunt or feed tomorrow? I know you said it's different, but I'm just wondering. Both of your eyes are still bright, so it's up to what you feel.”
Peter whispered, shaking his head, “I know after how I felt today that I could never hurt ya, Little One. I don't feel even the slightest bit thirsty, as I fed just before I came to ya... twice. I should be fine until after your cycle is complete, but I'll feed after we get settled at home just for precaution, if ya wish.”
I shook my head, “Peter I trust you to know your thirst better than me. If you believe you'll be fine, then you will.”
Jasper then spoke, “I would like to hunt as a precaution, even though I just went before your episode with the Major. I can wait until we get settled, though. I don't want to stop while still on our way.”
I wanted to tell them my decision about what intimacy I'd allow during my period, but I kind of didn't know how to bring it up. Instead, I just closed my eyes to enjoy Peter's magic hands.
A small while later, Peter was still massaging my hips and abdomen when I heard him ask, “How are ya feelin' now, Little One? The massage is helpin'?”
I hummed while smiling, “It feels wonderful. Haven't had a cramp since you started, and I feel so relaxed. I'm getting sleepy, but I don't want you to stop... unless you want to.”
Peter smiled, “I'll massage ya all night if that's what makes ya feel good. Havin' contact with your skin and knowin' I'm helpin' ya feel better makes me happy. Try to rest, Little One.”
I opened my eyes to Jasper smiling softly at me. He traced my lips with his thumb, “I love you, Darlin'. Peter is right. You should rest. We'll take care of you. Close your eyes and dream sweet dreams.”
I closed my eyes as his hand came to rest over my heart. I was sound asleep in no time.
JPOV:
Today was a long day. I figured that it would fly by with us having fun in the truck, but it wasn't to be. With the misunderstanding between Bella and Peter, the goddess talk, her being with her goddess so long, us worrying about her being gone so long, and all the sex in between, today was full of ups and downs.
The fates must really want us in Texas soon, because we were making extremely good time. We could possibly be at the house by 3 am. “Peter, we need to call Char. She needs to make sure all the perishable food is bought, and see if she wants to feed more before we get there. I doubt she'll need it, since she's been stress feeding, but we should ask.”
He whispered, as to not wake our sleeping mate, “My phone's on the dash. Can you dial and speakerphone, please?”
I nodded, snatching the phone from the dash. I quickly dialed the phone and put it on speaker, making sure the volume wasn't too loud. Char answered on the first ring. “Hey, Char. We're callin' to check in. Bella's sleeping... everything quiet there?”
She laughed, “Yeah, all's clear. I've done four perimeter checks today. All the fences are secure, the gates are in perfect order. Peter knows the pin. How are you?”
Peter sighed, then said, “Well, Little One found her inner goddess and spoke to her today. Literally. She was zoned out for around 9 hours straight. Scared the livin' shit out of me and the Major. It started as her actin' all innocent about the junk food she asked him to get her while I was talkin’ to ya earlier. A shit-ton of caramel. At the end of her little act, Jasper and I were laughin', then she blurted out of nowhere that she needed to learn yoga. I told her that ya’d be happy to teach her, so she explained that her inner goddess was beautifully poised in the lotus pose while she was actin' all innocent. That made our attention snap. I looked at Jasper, but Kitten caught it. She reminded us that there weren't supposed to be any secrets between us, so we explained the theory Jasper talked to me about the other night.”
He shook his head with a soft smile, then said, “Char, ya wouldn't believe how far her transformation's gone already. Her chocolate hair has a lot of red highlights and started gettin' blonde ones just today. It's almost to her waist now, smooth as silk. Her hips are lusciously round, her breasts are around a full cup size larger... perky as fuck... and her muscle tone is ridiculously sexy. She's about another inch taller than when I arrived, plus she radiates so much sensuality that ya just wanna drop to your knees. Her legs and ass...God, her ass, Char... it's the most perfect thing in the world. The line where her thighs meet it just begs to be licked.”
I laughed, causing Peter to chuckle, "Shit... anyway, I got off track. The theory was that her changes seemed to be addin' up to a goddess of some sort... that I should look into both the goddess and the elemental prophecies. The shaman believes that she is the true elemental, but Jasper and I think that only a goddess could be gifted to control all four elements. That's too much power for anyone but a goddess to wield. We explained this to Kitten, then she had an epiphany. Her fruit and nut diet, physical changes, powers, the sensuality, all of it fell into place in her mind, then her inner goddess fuckin' bowed to her. She literally bowed to her, Char.”
He let out a heavy breath before saying, “So then she started flippin' out about how much power she would have… about not askin' for any of this. Jasper squashed that shit, made her calm down her breathin', then told her to concentrate on her goddess. To let the goddess guide her. She positioned herself on top of Jasper's lap straddling him in a hero pose, with her hands on his chest muscles. She breathed and centered herself, then she was completely still for 9 fuckin' hours. Jasper was afraid to even speak, for fear of somethin' bad happenin'.”
Peter paused to look at Bella, but Char begged him to continue. She must hate missing all this time with our mate. Peter continued after another second, “For the first 3 hours straight, they were both statues. I started freakin' a bit inside, but Jasper finally told me to get my shit together... that she needed us to be her ground. He didn't move a muscle other than to speak for the whole process. When she finally came back to us, she was very thirsty. She drank 4 bottles of water in less than 5 minutes. She described what her true goddess self looked like before tellin’ us of the finished design on her back. We have to all go to Forks as soon as her transformation is complete, but before we turn her. It's imperative it's done in that order. The goddess said if we waited at all after the design on her back was complete, that it would be too late. They meditated for a long while when they were together, and she showed Kitten flashes of all stuff she’d be able to do in the near future.”
Char let out a breath like she was reading a riveting story, then Peter said, “She's to show her bracelet and her elements to Jacob, the wolf leader friend of hers. He knows the full prophecy, but won't tell her anythin' until he sees for himself both the bracelet and the elements. Kitten believes that we need to go to the wolves for help trainin' her to control her powers. The goddess is tryin' to come through. When she's in an episode, that’s the powers leakin' through her hold. Her goddess called her the 'Goddess Elemental'. She's gonna be so fuckin' powerful, Char. Flowers bloomin' in the wake of her steps, water risin' from a still ocean to kiss her fingers at the top of a cliff, fire blazin' from nothin' at the snap of her fingers, wind whiskin' away massive amounts of debris in her way... her goddess told her all this. I have a feelin' that's just the tip of the iceberg, though. Kitten believes all that was just what she would do in La Push with the wolves.”
Peter stopped to gather a breath, so Char stepped in. “Do we know how soon the transformation will be complete? Do we have a time frame? This is just amazing.”
I took this one, “We don't have one in months or weeks, but her elemental design and her instincts are our guides. Her goddess will also let her know, I believe. She won't gain the last element until you're with her intimately, and then she has to have a double infinity pattern with our names next to the corresponding elements, in a vine scroll pattern connecting them all. She said the final design was beautiful. Her physical changes will be done when her elemental design is complete. That's all we know as far as time wise. Everything is tending to be accelerated, though. She needed Peter a lot sooner than she was supposed to, she's been having at least one episode a day, plus the rate of her physical changes has accelerated. It's like TV on fast forward right now. Thank the goddess we've had such luck with the travel time, because we should be there around 3 am. Since everything happened the way it did, we didn't stop to grocery shop for her. She'll need food when she wakes, as she's not eaten much at all today. Will you please take the time to go for me? If you can, we won't have to stop on the way in.”
Char giggled, “As soon as you said you didn't stop, I had my keys in hand. What do I get her?”
Peter answered with a smile. “She needs excellent quality fruit, everythin' from local to exotic, especially peaches, apples, raspberries, and coconuts. The fresh coconut milk will do her good. She needs a large amount of custard apples, mixed unsalted nuts, and you need to go to the chocolatier in town that the humans are ravin' about. The darker the chocolate the better. Anythin' you can get that relates to our tastes or is fruit related is best, but she can have anything with dark chocolate. She likes caramel too. Buy out the store if you want, it won't hurt her a bit. Caviar is good, though the red makes her horny. Go easy on that one, because her sex drive is insane even without it. Lots of flavored water, pure fruit juices, but go very light with any citrus you buy. Too much will make her sick. Blood oranges. She likes those. All of the stuff for salmon tartar and crackers. Oh, also the freshest fish you can find. Salmon and halibut are good, as she likes both. See about jumbo clams and shrimp. If you find any extremely fresh, get some unsalted sweet cream butter. Green vegetables she can have sparingly. I think that covers the groceries. Did all of the deliveries arrive?”
Char laughed, “Way to change the subject, Hun. We received the packages from Fredericks, plus the large one from the aromatherapy site. Those were the only ones, right?”
I smiled, “Yeah, Char. Those are the only ones. Can you also call the jeweler to tell him we'll be in to see him within the next few days? We have to get our little Goddess' bracelet fixed, pronto. I don't want to wait until the last minute, then it not be fixed in time to see the wolves. Just to prepare you, her period is coming up fast... like later today fast. If you'd like to feed again you should, but I don't think you'll have a problem if you fed until full earlier today. And, Char? Thank you. Remind me when things settle down a little that the Major owes you a visit. I'll make sure it happens.”
She moaned in response, then huffed, “Damnit, Jasper! You can't just up and tell me that shit while I'm driving, you ass. You don't understand how much we've missed you while you were searching for Sweetness. Now you have to go talking about the Major, too? That's just torture. You're welcome, though, Sug. I'd do anything for her, you know that. She's our missing link... she's what we needed to bind us. I won't have an issue with her period... I was lucky enough to catch the leaders of an underage sex slave ring. Took all three of them, then set the slaves free with the leader's money. I'm at the whole foods store now. I'm friends with the chocolatier, so I'll call her and tell her that she'll get a five grand bonus plus the large sale if she gets here in thirty minutes. I'll see you guys soon. Love you.”
We said our goodbyes before I hung up the phone.
