Chapter 11: Retelling
Jasper was now working on my shoulder blades. I hummed in appreciation as he worked out a particularly tough knot, “I walked into the main office to let Mrs. Cope know I was there, but she immediately started gushing about the fax. Ten goddamn minutes of 'Chief Swan will be so proud, blah blah, does the Chief know, blah blah, I was always such a good student.' I had to tune most of her shit out, because I was seriously losing my handle on things, knowing that all this could be blown and Charlie find out before he gets home.”
Then I grumbled, “Stupid, nosey busy-bodies in this small-as-fuck town. Everybody thinks they need to know your business.”
Another lick to my spine... this one with more venom. I gasped, “Jazz, that's not fair. I can't even touch you when you do that.”
He smirked, letting me know he’d done it on purpose, “Sorry, Darlin. Didn't know I used that much venom.”
I laughed, “Yeah right, liar. Anyway, Peter. After her ten minute rant on Super Bella, the principal beckoned me into his office. I listened to him for 30 minutes about what to expect, and I asked him when the soonest available time was to take the test. He told me tomorrow after first bell was available, so I snatched it. I explained to him that I was trying to surprise Charlie and was waiting on an early admission letter from University of Texas... that in this small town, it would be hard to keep it a surprise for long. He told me he would have the results rushed and gotten to me by the end of the day tomorrow. When he gets them, I'll have to go back over to the school, sign my release papers, then get my GED certificate. Then I'm a free bird. It was really hard to get through the conversation, though, because my energy was steady draining. It felt like it was literally seeping out of my pores. As soon as I left his office, I called Jasper, but he was already there waiting.”
Peter cut in, “Major, how's that massage comin'?”
Jasper smiled, “Just finished.”
“Listen up, Major. The next part of her story is gonna be harder to tell. Start the tongue tracin', use a slow and steady stream of venom. Don't stop until well after she's done. Little One, take your time, try not to let yourself get wrapped into those feelin's, make sure you're wide open to the Major, then give him a minute to trace before ya start. Whenever you're ready, Babydoll.”
I did as Peter asked, trying to center myself. I thought about making sure Jasper could feel and get to every cell in my body as I took slow deep breaths. Jasper's tongue and venom were working their magic the whole time. Finally, he whispered into my flesh, “There we go, Darlin'. I got you now. One more deep breath for me, Sugar... Okay.”
I whispered to Peter, “Peter, are you ready?”
He gave me the go-ahead, so I started this part of my story with a much more subdued voice, “As soon as I got off the phone with Jasper and I walked out the door, it was like something in me literally snapped. I couldn't find a way to hold the ends together until I got to the truck. I went on autopilot. My brain shut down... I just felt lifeless. I hate how I felt, Peter. I wanted to scream out to Jasper to help me, but the words wouldn't come. He hugged me to him and it just got worse, because I kept trying to tell him what I needed, yet my energy kept seeping out like it was liquid through a sieve. He set me in the truck, then got in his side. He placed his hand on my back as he called my full name, but I couldn't talk still. It was killing me that I couldn't tell him what I needed... I couldn't even look at him.”
My voice was shaky by this point, so Peter told me to take a second. Jasper gave a little extra venom, kneading my hips as he kept up his ministrations. I took a deep breath, “Then he called my full name in a hard tone, so I knew Major had shown up. I immediately looked to him. He told me what I was to call him, that all my answers had to be out loud. I repeated everything, saying I understood. We were moving. Major said I had to eat the juicy bites in the bowl and drink the sweet liquid in the thermos. It was the mixed fruit and coconut milk, I realized later. I was almost completely on instinct, but the instinct wasn't mine. The only thing I had was what Major commanded.”
After a shaky breath I said, “Jasper asked 'How are you feeling, Darlin?' but he shouldn't have been there. I felt bad that the only one I could respond to was Major. Major doesn't call me Darlin'. I'm Major's Isabella. Only his. I was at my raw base... I needed my Major. He gave him back to me, then Major asked how I was feeling. I told him I was lost, and please help me come back. He said he would, but I had to stay open. I made sure I thought about him being able to feel and reach every cell in my body... told him I understood. I was still getting worse though. I was afraid that Major was going to leave again and that he wouldn't come back, and I was scaredandafraidandIcouldn't...”
I was rambling. Tears were falling rapidly from my eyes. Peter cut in, “Little One... it's good you're talkin' about this. Now we can make sure the next time ya need the Major, he can help ya better, and Jasper won't interfere. Now give him a second to help calm ya, Sugar. Then continue.”
As I steadied my breathing, I knew that Peter was right. I needed to talk this out so that I could come back quicker next time. Deep breath. In... Out... In... Out. Love and peace, venom, mate's tongue.
“I'm okay now. I can continue. Major told me to get out of the truck on his side after I got the metal flasks, then close the door before standing facing him in front of the truck. Since everything was getting worse and I was afraid that Major would go away, I was shaky. Unstable. He asked if I was still with him, but I could barely answer. Major rushed me to a soft spot in the middle of a flower place with big trees around. It was a field. He told me to disrobe quickly, sit in his lap facing him and bring the flasks. I didn't want Major to go anywhere, so I took my time taking off my clothes. I also wanted to see if he would really punish me for not obeying an order. Major told me to hurry up. He sounded really mad. I was in trouble, but that was okay because Major didn't go anywhere. I hurried up like he told me, then sat straddling his lap facing him. Major didn't smile when I did that like Jasper usually does.”
After feeling a kiss to my elements, Jasper continued licking them, so I said, “He had his hand on my back again. He wanted to know why I took so long. I told him I wanted to see if he would really punish me. He told me that he definitely would, but first I needed to drink all of what was in both metal flasks. The sweet nectar helped me be able to focus on Major and his commands, so I drank them quickly. I realized later that it was the liqueurs. Once I finished every drop, I was only aware of Major...of what he told me to do. He told me to lay face down with my ass in his lap, legs to one side, and arms to the other. I hurried to do as he told me... I wanted to please Major so much. I wanted to be good for him, to take my punishment.”
I paused as I took a breath, then continued, “He told me 10 warm-up spanks, 10 punishment spanks, and count out loud. For each spank I counted, I felt Major stirring something in me. I felt his hardness at my stomach, and his spanks made me want more. He spanked every inch of my ass and thighs. I counted perfectly for him. He rubbed the sting when my warm-up was done. He told me to count again, then the spanks were a lot harder. I knew somewhere in the back of my mind that I could handle much more, but Major had my needs in mind. He knew what to do, so I trusted my Major. He was the only thing in my world. I was trying not to squirm as I counted for him, but something primal was melting like lava in my body. I realized he was making me want to cum. When I thought back to it during our bath tonight, I knew for a fact that if he had given me another ten for punishment, I would have cum before he was through.”
Jasper hummed against my spine as a small shot of desire reached me, then I continued, “When he was done, Major praised me for doing so well while rubbing the sting for a minute. My ass was on fire, but the pain made the pleasure better somehow. Plus, with every spank, Major was knitting back together what had snapped in me earlier. Major said I liked my punishment, and he thought I would like what he did next because my eyes weren't level yet. He wrapped my wrists tightly in rope above my head while I was laying on my back. He thrust into me in one stroke; he wasn't gentle. I knew Major wouldn't hurt me, though. I was so wet that he slipped in easily.”
I took a calming breath before explaining, “Major felt so good as he pounded into me from above. The muscles in his arms and stomach rippled as he moved in and out, and I was close... so close. Major growled at me that I wasn't allowed. (Giggle) That just made me want to cum more. His growl is sexy... but him having power over my orgasms? It was hot. I wanted to touch him so much, but he had my hands bound. He wouldn't let me cum, and he was pounding, and sexy muscles, and then I was begging.... begging and pleading for Major to please let me cum for him.”
Another pause. A breath to collect myself, “I needed to cum for Major. He pushed one of my legs up his body, changing the angle. It was exquisite torture. So close to cumming, but Major said I better fucking not until he let me. Finally, thank Christ, Major told me to cum for him. I shattered into a million pieces with the ground shaking, the wind swirling like a tornado outside the silver-green glow. It was Major, me and our euphoria, but the rest of the world didn't exist... then finally, I was myself again.”
It was silent for a few seconds after I finished. Jasper was still tending to my elements while kneading my hips and purring. Peter finally spoke, “Major, keep goin', but listen carefully. I know ya were worried about her not acceptin' the Major, but as ya can tell, ya can't let Jasper take over any more durin' the Major's time. It fucked with Little One's head... made her scared that she would lose what was keepin' her together. What color were her eyes today?”
Jasper whispered into my flesh but didn't stop, “Silver with green specks and green outer ring. They swirled like a tornado.”
Peter hummed as he said, “I'm gonna make a guess here. I think that when her eyes are green, she needs Jasper; when they're silver she needs Major. Keep an eye on them. From the sounds of it, I was right about the liqueurs. Keep her on ‘em. Make sure she gets them every day, and the same amount again durin’ an episode. She said it helped her focus on ya. She trusts the Major completely, so ya should have no issues doin' what needs to be done to bring her back. How much good chocolate and fish have ya had today, Little One?”
I thought back to the heaven of a chocolate bar I had earlier tonight and instantly wanted another, “Not counting the 2 Hershey bars at lunch, I had one from a chocolatier in Port Angeles right after my episode. I had really good salmon for dinner, with a big bowl of raspberries and peaches, along with coconut milk before our bath.”
Peter responded, “That's not enough chocolate or fish. Have your Jasper get some smoked salmon, then make ya up a bunch of salmon tartar. Get some toast points as a snack to go with them. Snack on that throughout the day with the chocolate and nuts. Eat as much fruit as ya can at meals. When Charlie is home, stash a cooler in your room with all of the above on ice... give him the excuse that you're just too excited about your early admission to eat. Or better yet, switch the fish and fruit that day. Snack on fruit, chocolate, and nuts all that day, then have fish for dinner. The vegetables will be fine as long as ya stick to somethin' green and a small potato.”
At my acknowledgment, he continued, “Ya need to call and tell Charlie that ya have a special surprise for him, so ya need to see him Wednesday. You'll have to tell him you're leavin' first thing Thursday mornin'. Ya need to get your asses to Texas. Make sure ya work out a schedule of what you're doin' for each day, then stick to it as much as possible. That will help minimize the episodes. Little One, your Jasper and the Major won't be in the same place again. He knows what he did wrong, so when ya need the Major now, you'll have only him. Jasper will wait for his turn. You're very special, Sugar, and neither one of them will risk losin’ ya in any way. Char and I will help in any way we can. We love ya, too, Little One.”
I smiled as Jasper got a chocolate bar before crawling up next to me in bed. “Mmm... Heaven in bar form. I know, Peter... Jazz and I love you guys, too.”
Jasper finally joined in the conversation, “She's right, Pete. We do. (laughs) You should feel the emotions she throws off when she's eatin' these chocolates. She's oozin' happy tingly vibes like she's an empath on ecstasy.”
Peter laughed outright, “Well, give her all of it that she wants; none of what we want her to eat will affect her weight. In fact, throughout this change she's goin' through, her body will become more toned and refined. Don't be afraid of the chocolate, Sugar. It's your friend from now on.”
I hummed in pleasure, “Peter, remind me to kiss you when I see you, Hun. Only you could tell me to eat shit-ton amounts of chocolate -that it would help tone my body in the same sentence- and make me believe it. I seriously need to kiss you senseless for that. Jasper might even do it, too, since I'm throwing off all these good vibes.”
I giggled as I heard both vampires growl. Jasper kissed my neck as I continued to nibble happily on my chocolate heaven. “Alright, ya two. There's two rapists/murderers with my name on them not far from here, so I'm gonna let ya continue your night of happy vibes. Call me tomorrow after ya get all the paperwork taken care of, Little One. I wanna hear all about your day. Major, I'll talk to ya soon. Call if ya need me.” Then the phone line went dead.
It was getting really late, so after I finished my chocolate bar, I started to yawn. Jasper kissed me gently, so I savored the moment before going to the bathroom to do my nightly routine. When I returned, Jasper was in bed, the phones and laptop were charging, plus the covers were turned down. I picked up my phone as I sat on the edge of the bed, ready to check in with Charlie.
I didn't even try to lay down next to him tonight after the call finished. I climbed directly on top of him, settling down on his chest with a contented sigh. He wrapped his arms around me, pulled the covers to my hips, then started tracing. “Mmm. I love the feel of your hands on me, Jazz,” I whispered sleepily.
“I love the feel of you in my hands, Darlin'. I would be touching some part of your body 24/7 if it would be feasible.”
The last thing I remember was whispering, “Mmm... that would... be... ni-ce.”
My Bella was sleeping soundly now, so I thought back to the huge fuck up I made earlier. It was a slip, but I should've known better than to have Jasper show up outta the blue during the Major's time. At least now I know that she trusts the Major implicitly. Hearing how she thought while she was losing herself... it was almost like the baser vampire thoughts. Going on instincts... sensory thoughts... like the juicy bites and sweet liquid being the fruit and the coconut milk. Then the sweet nectar was the liqueurs, along with her not answering Jasper because on the basest level she needed the Major. Even on that base level, she knew that I as the Major would never hurt her. That would only give her what she needed. Anything she needed. It hurt that I messed up, though.
When I spoke as Jasper after the Major gave her a command, she thought the Major was gone. Then she was scared he would go away again after I corrected my slip... that was the real reason she disobeyed the order. She thought if she disobeyed, the Major would stay to punish her. I need to make it clear to her that my slip was just that. I need her to know that the Major's not ever gonna leave her when she needs him. But the only way to do that is to show her when she's having another episode. No matter what, today she showed me she needs and loves the Major as much as Jasper. She needs every part of me, and that makes me feel so good. No one has ever needed or wanted all of me.
The part she said about her names... she's Jasper's Darlin' and Major's Isabella.
Then there's the venom thing with her elements. I wonder what that's about. I wasn't expecting my venom to have that profound of an effect on us when I placed that mouthful on her marks. I think it's a combination of the venom and my tongue, though, because we didn't have the reaction until my flattened tongue touched her after the venom was in place. Fuck, that was insane. She was right... it came out of nowhere. I'd make her cum like that anytime she needed me to, though.
Her describing to Peter everything on the phone while I fucked her was downright hot. It seemed like I couldn't get enough of her. Then she wanted Peter to cum for us. She wanted to hear him call her name as he came... and he did. She seems to be really open about us being with them intimately, but I'm gonna take her lead. She'll let me know how much she's ready for and when.
She's been keeping herself open to me, too. Even in her sleep, which is a good thing. I need to be able to affect her even while she's sleeping. There's no telling when one of those episodes will happen. She is extraordinary, my mate. I get immersed in her when we're together.
I get lost in my thoughts while doing the tracing for the next few hours, until she starts stirring. It's only 4:30, though.