Feeling Cocktails, Giggles, and No More Switzerland
A few hours before sunrise, I got the idea back in my head for naked yoga. That would have to wait until after my cycle was over though, so I hopped up to get in the shower. We all showered together after Jasper went to get a set of the dispensers. He mounted the shampoo, conditioner, and shower gel in the shower, then the lotion on the wall next to the vanity.
Peter and Jasper entwined their hands, washing every inch of my body as Char lovingly washed and conditioned my very long locks. When they were done, Peter helped me wash Jasper, then Jasper helped me wash Char as she washed Peter. It was very loving and intimate. We all toweled each other dry, then Char brought me clothing and my bathroom bag. I took care of my necessities, making a note to pack a small bag to leave at the reservation with my bathroom dispensers.
After I dressed in a pair of low-rise charcoal lounge gauchos and a charcoal/silver/red paisley backless tunic tank, I sat at the vanity table. Char braided my hair into two intricate french braids down my back with loose tendrils hanging down. It looked beautiful. My lashes were so thick and my complexion so perfect, that I didn't need any makeup or bronzer at all.
I looked ready to train, plus I felt really good. I was hungry, though. I kissed her lovingly and turned to the door, only then noticing my two male mates leaning in the doorway. I kissed them both, then they parted the way for me to pass.
I went straight to the kitchen, opening the back door. I knew the wolves would want to check in. I felt they would come in when they were ready if the door was open. I got 2 waters, the last thermos of apple milk, a large bowl of mixed fruit, and a container of caviar out of the frig. I grabbed 2 medium bags of chocolate, then a banana from the counter. I was balancing all this in my arms, yet managed to set it down on the table with no problem.
From behind me, I heard the pack come in in human form, Embry saying as he patted me on the back, “Damn, Bella. You feeding an army this morning?”
I laughed. “Yeah, an army of me. None of this is for you. It's all for me, Bubba. Back away from the table and nobody gets hurt.”
They all laughed, but backed away anyway. I laughed harder as I sat down, “Get over here and sit down, you clowns. Raid the fridge if you want. You know what not to touch.”
Jake grabbed four Pepsi's from the frig, handed them out, then grabbed four large bags of chips from the cupboard. This is why we bought the store out of cases of chips. They snack on a whole bag at a time.
“OK, Goddess. What's the plan for today?”
I nodded as I finished the bite of chocolate in my mouth. “We meet the elders and other pack members in the clearing at sun-up. We get the truce vow out of the way, then I hope to let my powers loose for a bit to see what I can do. I can feel the power building in me, like it knows it's time to show off or something. I do know that if I don't let them out soon, I'll have another episode. I don't like how they make me feel. I feel so lost and out of control when I have them. I think if I give the powers a safe way to release, the episodes will slow way down or stop altogether. That would be a really good thing. Peter, Char, and Jazz wouldn't worry so much. Speaking of which. Jazz, I need my drinks.”
He nodded as got the liqueurs and a glass from the cupboard. “We need to make sure we pack a few bottles of each for the rez and the main house. I also want to pack a couple sets of clothes to leave at the rez. If I need them and don't have anything backless around, people are going to see more of me than they should. My tits might be perfect, but they don't need to be flaunted for half the rez to see.”
Jake, Embry and Quil choked on their chips while my vampires laughed at my statement. Quil was the one to whisper, “Really?”
I chuckled, “Really. Everything is. It's part of the whole goddess transformation. I can't wear a bra because my clothes all have to be completely backless, yet I don't really need one. The girls hold themselves up. It's like the best boob job in the world.”
Peter jumped in, “Kitten, even a plastic surgeon couldn't do that good a job. They would drool all over themselves to be able to duplicate your rack... or your ass... mmm...”
I had to stop him, “Okay, okay, that's enough. They get the picture. Fucking goddess body, goddess powers. I kick ass. We know. Now let me eat.”
Everyone in the room laughed as I opened the caviar. I mixed it into my fruit, then hummed as I took my first bite. I love this shit. Soo good.
I ate everything set in front of me while everyone else talked and laughed. The conversation got back around to last night as I swallowed my last bite, so I said in a soft voice, “Jake, I'm really sorry I was a bitch to you. You should've growled at me or something... called me on that shit. You know it's not how I am. I don't want to get that way either. I won't let all these changes and powers go to my head.”
He pulled me from my seat before hugging me to him, “I know, Silly Bells. I just happened to pass near the cabin on patrol, and well, I got worried. You screamed so hard your voice gave out. I knew after I saw you, though. I knew then that you were okay. I just had to see for myself. I'm sorry I messed up your night. I know you don't get much private time with them. Hopefully we can get on a pretty regular schedule, then you'll be able to have more time with them.”
I kissed his cheek as he let me go, then placed my hands on his shoulders, “Jake, you didn't ruin our night. As soon as I realised what I'd said to you, I felt like complete shit. Once you left, we all did what we usually do for most of the night. They wrapped themselves around me and we just were. We cuddled, spent the night holding each other. None of that was ruined. You just caught the end of the before-cuddle action, that's all. Now that you know how loud we get, you know what a safe distance is. No biggie. All good?”
He smirked, giving me a raised eyebrow as he chuckled, “No biggie? Sounded pretty big to me, but who am I to say?”
I smacked his arm, “Christ, Jake! I don't need my brothers and sisters knowing the details of my sexual experiences. That's why we're in the cabin, not the main house. That's what the safe distance thing is for. Jesus, you're my brother, Jake. That's just... ewe.”
He laughed and pulled my braids, then sat back down. I finished what was left of my drinks... half of my apple milk and my liqueurs. Leah asked, “What's the liquor for?”
I smiled, “Remember the oils and the scent thing? Well this goes along with it. Chambord Raspberry for me, Leopold Bros. Peach for Jasper, Peter is the Goldschlager Cinnamon, and Char is the Kalani Coconut. Something about the flavor and alcohol mix keeps me stable. I need twenty oz of each every day... another ten or more during an episode, depending on my needs and how bad the episode. I don't get drunk off them, but can only drink ones flavored like apple, cinnamon, raspberry, chocolate, vanilla, peach, coconut or mango. The more real fruit used, the better, but the Manzanita Apple wasn't bad. It's weird, I know, but I have to have it until after my turning. Then I will still be able to drink those, but it won't be necessary.”
She looked at me with wide eyes, “Twenty oz straight of four different alcohols, yet you don't even feel a buzz?”
I smiled widely, “Nope, just feel closer to my mates... more grounded and stable.”
I went to pick up the glass to drink the Chambord, but the pack all raised their eyes at me. “Watch if you don't believe.”
I downed the whole glass, licked my lips, then handed the glass to Peter. He filled it with the peach and handed it back. Second glass down, I licked my lips before handing the glass back. He filled it with the cinnamon, then the process repeated. I downed the last glass, the coconut, and licked my lips one last time with an 'Ahh'. I walked over to rinse out my glass and my bowls. I placed them all in the drainer, then turned to Jasper, “Project what I'm feeling right now... otherwise they'll think I'm trying to cover.”
He nodded, then let loose my feelings. I heard a round of gasps and hums, “Shit! This is your stable mood? This shit's better than Utopia, Sis!” Leah exclaimed.
I looked, and they all seemed stoned. Holy cow. Goddess feelings not meant for the wolves, I guess.
I hurried, “Do you feel drunk?”
Jasper laughed, “No, Darlin'. I just sent them what you're feeling now. The power, energy, closeness, sensuality, love for your mates, love for your wolf family, the full feeling from eating, plus the natural feeling you get from the bonds with us. Just your normal feeling cocktail.”
I nodded as I looked at the pack. It was funny. They really looked stoned on my feelings. I giggled. “I guess you aren't as used to it as I am, but yes... I feel that way when I'm stable. Jasper feels it all the time, too. I keep my feelings completely open to him at all times. A lot of times, he projects them for Peter and Char to feel.”
I made 'cut it' motion to Jasper, so he slowly stopped the flow of emotion. They each sat forward in their chairs looking at me in awe. “Sorry guys. I didn't know it would affect you so heavily.”
They each shook their heads quickly, then Jake rushed to say, “Don't you dare apologize for that. That was completely fuck-awesome! I can't even begin to imagine what sex would feel like if that's your normal. Jesus Christ, that felt amazing!”
I laughed, “And I can't even begin to explain what sex feels like with that as my norm. It's a million times better. That was the screaming last night. Do you understand now?”
They all nodded, but couldn't find anything to say. Two whole minutes later, they were still silent. “Guys? Are you okay? I didn't scare you, did I?”
They laughed, looking at me like I was crazy. “Awesome Bells, you really think that scared us? No, Honey. We're not scared. It's just that normal people don't feel like that as their stable. Even in wolf form, with all the adrenaline and heightened senses... we don't even feel that good then as a norm. Jasper, is a vampire stable similar to that?”
Peter answered this, “No, we don't even feel this as normal. This is a mellow/really good happy, compared to a vampire stable. We feel things strongly... we love strong, hate strong, and our normal is strong compared to a human... but her stable is better than ours. When she's not in our presence, we miss it terribly. The three of us strive to keep her happy, because when she's happy Jasper can't help but project it to us. It makes us feel good to know we make her happy. Does that make sense?”
They all nodded and smiled, then Jake said, “I'm glad she has such good mates. I was kind of hoping she'd imprint on a wolf, but this is just as good, based on how you treat her. We really need to let the other wolves and elders have a feel at her normal. It may help with her power training, especially since her powers seem to be tied to her emotions.”
Jasper replied, “I won't mind doing that, but only with their approval. I don't like forcing feelings on people unless it's an emergency. If they approve, I will gladly let them feel. Is that alright with you, Darlin'?”
I nodded, “I don't mind at all, if you think it might help with training. The faster I get the hang of this the better.”
I looked at the clock on the wall. 5:35 am. “We need to hurry to get all the stuff packed that’s going to the main house and Sam's. Let's get all the remaining dispensers and my clothes into the duffle with 16 bottles of the liqueurs. I think two bottles each at the main house and Sam's should do. We can replace them from our stash when necessary. Char, can you help me pick out three or four sets of clothes to take over?”
She smiled while taking my hand. We went into the bedroom, picked out four sets of clothes and underwear, two pairs of socks, a pair of sandals, and a pair of sneakers. We went back to the living room, where she set them in the duffle bag on top of the dispensers. Jasper had the liqueurs in a wooden crate, while Peter was carrying the now-empty cooler. We would have to fill it with the food to take to Sam's when we got to the main house.
I wanted to get to the main house soon, because I wanted to fix the pack a huge platter of scrambled eggs, bacon, sausage, biscuits, and skillet home fries with onions for breakfast. I had asked Esme if she would please get the home fries cut before we got there this morning. She’d gladly agreed.
We loaded up quickly, making it to the main house in less than three minutes. We walked in through the kitchen door, only to find everyone cutting, chopping, mixing, or cleaning dishes in the kitchen. “Wow, this is the busiest I've ever seen this kitchen. It smells really good in here.”
Esme hugged my lightly, then placed a kiss on my temple. “We figured you would have a busy day ahead of you, so we decided to take some of the load off. The first batch of everything is almost ready. The home fries and onions are in the skillet, the bacon and sausage are in the top oven, the biscuits are in the bottom one, then the finished mountain of eggs is in the warmer. We have another two rounds almost ready to go in. We figured we could take those to the field with us, then set up a serving table with forks and plates, so that the other pack members could have breakfast too. They'll need the energy with training, and everyone needs to be in top form. We can whip another batch up quickly if you don't think two will be enough.”
I smiled through the tears in my eyes as I looked around the room. The Cullens and Denalis were really pulling together with the wolves for me. It made my heart swell with emotion. I looked at Jasper with a nod. He knew what I was asking, so he let the whole room of people feel it. They all gasped before smiling at me, so I choked out as best as I could, “Seeing you all... do this for... me and the pack... that's what I... feel right now. Thank you... so very much.”
Esme and Carlisle surrounded me in a hug, then Carlisle whispered, “We would do anything for you, and it's about time we show it. We love you, Bella. Goddess or no Goddess. We love you, and you should be shown that.”
I cupped one of his cheeks, kissed the other, then did the same with Esme. “Thank you both. It means a lot that I have you by my side through this. Knowing I have people I can count on.”
I heard the timer on the oven go off, so I let go of Esme, nodding. She dashed to get the food out of the ovens, with Carmen helping her. “I don't think a third round will be necessary. I think they're planning on splitting the pack into three groups for training. One set will train, one will watch the rez, and the other will have down time. Then they'll switch at intervals during the day. Am I right, Jake?”
He nodded, but his mouth was full as soon as Esme set a plate in front of him. “Oh, that's so good. Thank you. Yes, that's the way I want the pack to rotate. When we get there, the first round will be coming off patrol. When they've had a few hours training, we'll break for Bella to recharge, then I'll call shift change. The watchers will train, the sleepers will patrol, and the ones done training will sleep. We'll be able to keep a good rotation that way. I figure by just before dinner time Bella will be ready to stop, so she can get cleaned up and ready to see Charlie before he gets there. She can be out back before Sue shows up with him.”
I thought it was a good plan. “Oh, Esme. We brought two bottles each of my liqueurs to keep here. We also found these nifty little dispensers for my aromatherapy soaps, shampoos, conditioners, and lotions. Do you mind if they get put in the bathroom?”
Oh, shit. We didn't tell the Cullens about the scent thing. “Aromatherapy? Is that something to do with your goddess changes?”
I smiled. “Everyone, can I have your attention, please? I forgot to mention it last night, but it's similar to the liqueur thing. Flavors of liqueur taste like my mates to me, and the oils we use smell like them. They help me feel close to the mate I need at that time. If I need to feel closer to Char, I can just use the coconut lotion, or the coconut and my raspberry. If I need to feel closer to Jasper and Peter both, I can custom mix the lotions to have both of their scents near me. The same goes for the shower gel, shampoos, and conditioners. Each dispenser spot has a single scent combination in it, and they are color coated to our elements. My scent is green for earth, Jasper's is silver for air, Peter's is red for fire, and Char's is pearl blue for water. I can mix them any which way I need them, and my mates know how to help. It's like layering my self in the person I need to feel close to. Does that make sense?”
Rosalie came over and hugged me to her, “Of course it does, Sweetie. All vampires want to feel close to their mates. Hell, I'd do the same thing, if I could.”
I laughed, “You can, Rose. The place we got these from has like a million different scents or something. All of the essential oils we got get added to a base oil for my massages. Same with the shampoos and all the rest. And everything is organic, really pure. You should run a brush through my hair some time. It's so silky it's ridiculous. It's all natural products. No dyes or chemicals. The coloring we add is plant based, so it doesn't stain or anything. Look.”
I pulled out the shower gel from the bag. “I put them in the order of my elements, because it's easy to remember. If you really want to, we can go online to look for the scents and stuff you want later.”
She nodded excitedly, then all of the mated women jumped on the bandwagon. We set it up that as soon as we got back here, I'd spend an hour with them, and we'd get the scents and bases they wanted.
The pack was almost done eating now, the second batch we were taking with us was in the oven. Jasper was loading my food and drinks for Sam's house in the now icy cooler. Peter was helping him. Char and I decided to take the dispensers and set them up in the bathroom, so I handed the liqueurs to Alice. “Can you please find a good place for half of these? You're always good at finding the best places. Oh, and thanks for girling down your mate yesterday for me. I asked if anyone had a hair clip, then he popped up out of nowhere with a pretty clip and a curling iron. He's good at the whole brother thing.”
She smiled widely, then rushed to the pantry with the 8 liqueurs. Char carried the dispensers up the stairs, where we mounted three in the shower corners. The lotion got mounted on the wall next to the vanity.
We walked back downstairs, where I noticed the front door was open. The breeze blew in, and it felt so good. I ran the rest of the way down the stairs, down the porch, then out onto the grass, twirling as I went. “Char, come dance with me, Baby! The breeze just feels so good!”
She twirled me in her arms, so I giggled again. As I did, the breeze fluttered around me. Char dipped me; another giggle passed my lips. The breeze fluttered again. Hmmm.
Char decided all of a sudden that tickling me was a good idea while I was still dipped in her arms, making my giggle ring through the front yard. The breeze fluttered like butterflies through the whole yard, causing everyone to laugh happily.
We stopped our antics after a few minutes, turning to bow to our audience. “Bella-boo did you do that with the breeze?” Emmett asked.
“I think I did, Em. Every time I giggled, the breeze felt like butterflies. It was cool, huh? I just felt the breeze touch my skin as I was coming down the stairs... it felt so good, that I suddenly felt like dancing in it. The more the breeze touched my skin, the better I felt. I feel amazing right now.”
I twirled and pranced around Char, giggling again. The breeze fluttered like butterflies kissing my skin. After a second, I plopped onto the grass.
When I closed my eyes, I felt the energy moving through the earth, which made me think of the flowers trailing behind my footsteps in the vision. I heard several people gasp, so I popped my eyes open. They were all looking down at me in awe. I looked around to find out what they were seeing, then noticed flowers had sprouted from between my spread fingers in the grass.
On instinct, I caressed the blue flower, making it grow larger than the others. I smiled and stood up, plucking the flower from the ground. I walked over to Char, placed the flower in her hair, then kissed her softly. “For you, my beautiful flower.” She kissed me slowly in reply.
When we parted, all of the mated pairs were holding each other. I noticed that Kate and Embry seemed to be eying each other, but didn't say anything. We'll see where that goes.
“Okie-dokie, everyone. Are we ready to head out now that I've had my fun?”
They smiled as Eleazar said, “You can have fun anytime you want, as far as we're concerned. It was a beautiful sight. Amazing Bella, really.”
We all loaded up in the Tahoe and two other SUVs, Char and Peter in Carlisle's, then headed for the treaty line clearing. Just as we walked through the treeline, the sun was coming up. Perfect timing.
Some of the Cullens set up the table and food for the pack, making a buffet style set-up. The pack, myself, Jasper, Char, and Peter all made our way to the center of the clearing to speak to the elders. “Good morning. Esme had the idea to take some of the work for breakfast off my shoulders. She made some for the first training group, too. After you have the assurance you need, please allow them to get something to eat. I would like to speak with you about what happened this morning before we left the house. I was told it was a beautiful sight.”
Old Quil spoke, “Good morning to you all, as well. The wolves were just complaining of not being able to eat after patrol, so I'm sure they will be glad Esme went to the trouble. It was nice of her. You look radiant this morning, Goddess. I take it you feel as well as you look?”
I smiled, nodding enthusiastically, so he continued, “That's wonderful news. Let us get details out of the way, then we will speak of your happenings.” Together, we all walked back to the Cullens and Denalis.
Carlisle and Eleazar slowly stepped forward, so I made the introductions, “Carlisle Cullen and Eleazar of the Denali clan, this is Quil Ateara, Billy Black, Sue Clearwater, and Sam Uley. These are the elders of the Quileute tribe.”
They exchanged greetings, then Quil took the lead. “I would like to review the terms of the agreement with you before we hear your response.”
Carlisle and Eleazar both nodded, so Quil continued, “We are willing to nullify the treaty on a trial basis to allow you in our homes, accompanied by pack members until we feel safe that there is no threat to our people, then the guard will be lightened. We will work alongside you to train and fight the Seattle threat, as well as any other threat the goddess must face in her destiny. We will split the training of both the goddess and the pack between this field and a field the goddess has seen on neutral land near your home. In return, you will give us your utmost assurance that no one in your groups will harm any who reside on reservation land, be it elders, pack members, or citizens. You will also allow us to rest and regroup safely in your home when the training is in that field. Does this sound like the offer the goddess gave you?”
Carlisle smirked at me, “You forgot to mention nullifying the treaty on a trial basis, Bella.” Then he continued to answer Quil, “Other than her not mentioning that detail, yes. Everything you mentioned was gone over and agreed to in full. If I may say, Sir… we spoke while Bella was here yesterday. We don't know the details, but we do know her destiny is about more than just the Seattle vampires. We have all agreed to do anything and everything in our powers to help her. She wishes there to be peace between us. Our families have agreed to strive for that peace. If you'll allow me to address both families...”
Quil nodded, then Carlisle and Eleazar both stepped back, turning to face the line of vampires waiting patiently.
“Cullens, Denalis, do you all vow not to harm any resident of reservation land, be they wolf, elder, or citizen, under penalty of death?” All of them answered with 'I do'.
“Do you all agree to strive for peace with the Quileute tribe?” Again they answered with 'I do'.
“And do you all agree to help and defend any Quileute member in your presence, should anyone try to harm them now or in the future?” They all answered 'I do'.
He and Eleazar both turned back to the elders. This time Eleazar spoke, “My family from Alaska may not have been part of your treaty, but I give you my solemn vow that we wish no harm to come to you. None of us will do harm to you or your tribe. I swear to it.”
Carlisle spoke now. “I have hoped for a time of peace between our people for as long as the treaty has been in place. I personally am glad the time has come. I swear to uphold the vows given today. We only wish peace with your people.”
Old Quil looked at each member of the elder's council, asking seriously, “What say you?”
Each responded with, “Let us strive for the peace that the goddess wishes.”
Quil then turned to the two clan leaders, saying with his palms raised and fingertips touching, “Let us strive for the peace that the goddess wishes.”
They all shook hands, then I let out a breath of relief. “Finally, no more Switzerland!”
Edward and Jacob both laughed, knowing what I meant. Quil and the elders looked to me with raised eyebrows, so I explained, “The arguing between Edward and Jacob got to a point where I declared loudly, with my hands on both their chests, that I was Switzerland. I was neutral, and I was not going to let them fight over me. My last words on it were 'Switzerland... got it?'”
Everyone that heard me laughed, finally in on the joke. Quil put a hand on my shoulder, “Let us talk now, Little Goddess. Jake make sure your brothers and sisters get something to eat.”