Rated M for language,adult situations,and the possibility of sexual situations in later Chapters.Not intended for anyone under 18.
Chapter 3: Forming Bonds
During the months I was here, I began to notice how my feelings toward the three and the guard were beginning to change and shift into different forms.
I felt I had familial bonds with most of the guard. Alec, Demetri, and Felix were like brothers and Jane, Heidi, and Chelsea were most definitely like sisters. When I was around them we acted like a bunch of kids. With Renata, I had to tread lightly where she was concerned though. Why, I had to figure out. Did she think I was invading her territory or something? I decided to have Aro get to the bottom of this little matter.
Every day I would meet with the three 'brothers' and we would spend time discussing music, art, and literature, I they all had a deep appreciation for each subject, they all had their personal favorite, and I found that Aro, Marcus, and Caius were vastly different.
While Aro seemed to act like a greedy child but he always had the best interests of others at heart. He and I often sat and discussed our favorite books and authors. We even had heated discussions about William Shakespeare. He told me that he spent time with the man and he was a hopeless romantic that wrote tragic sonnets of love that mostly ended in death, which I found hard to believe, but "Romeo and Juliet" was still my ultimate favorite by the man.
When he asked e of whom my favorite author was I told him I absolutely loved Jane Austen's "Sense and Sensibility" and "Pride and Prejudice". He had said that he'd met her asked me why I liked these two books and I told him he had to read them and then we'd talk, but I did tell him they were stories of finding yourself, everlasting love, and also discussed the way I felt about Renata and he told me to give her time and she would come around. I had to hand it to him, he was right. She and I became close friends and we would do anything to keep him and his brothers safe.
Marcus seemed to have a big heart with a lot of love to give and a large fondness for music, especially the classical genre. He asked me of my likes and dislikes and we found we had more in common than we first thought. We talked about composers and to his relief; he found I mostly enjoyed Debussy, Beethoven, Bach, and Mozart but held a fondness of Chopin, Strauss, and Tchaikovsky. Though I couldn't tell him the concerto's I loved the tones and pitch of the movements through each composer. We spent hours listening to them and discussing different things as the music flowed from the speakers in his study.
To many Caius came off as an anti-peacekeeper and liked to wage conflict with anyone who came across his path, but he didn't fool me. He is actually a great guy once you get to know him but he has a fear of letting anyone close as his ex-wife Athendora really did a number on him. Much like Edward did to me.
His fondness of art and the paintings he painted were enough to blow me away. He showed me his work and asked me my opinion of it. His landscapes were breathtaking but the portraits he painted were phenomenally life like. I liked the portrait of Marcus he did the best. He asked me why and my answer was simple. I told him that he caught the pain and sadness of him and brought it to life.
He explained his love of art to me and said that this was the easiest way for him to express himself without any cruelty. He really had no concept of how to be around people unless he came off as cold and cruel. I stared at him often and once he caught me. He questioned me about it and I explained that I was intimidated by him, fascinated with his knowledge of the finer things in life, infuriated by his cold angry demeanor, and captivated by everything about him. That seemed to render him speechless. When he found his voice he had said that when he first saw me in the throne room weeks before, he himself was infuriated with my knowledge of his kind, fascinated by my lack of self preservation and fear of the Supernatural, and captivated by my beauty and I must have put some sort of mystical spell on him. I asked about that comment and all he told me was 'you will see my meaning all in due time'. I wondered what he meant by that and was floored with a very possible realization; Caius Volturi may be falling for me.
I spent a majority of time with them and in the evenings I was left with my own devices to mull over my feelings for them. I realized quickly that Marcus is a gentle man with a vast amount of love to give and I think of him as a father figure; Aro is a kind loving man that I felt strongly for as the big brother I never had; but with Caius, I found myself feeling things that scared the hell out of me. He seemed to consume my every waking moment and my senses reeled when he was around. He held me captive with his eyes and I felt a burning need to be with him. Oh, sweet Jesus, I think I'm seriously in trouble here; I'm falling for the Snow King himself.
I decided to give them my decision as to who would change me on my 20th birthday which was in a few weeks but first I had to find out from Marcus, who I had the strongest bond with and which of them had the strongest one with me. They all have amazing control over their bloodlust as I spend so much time with them in various parts of the castle, including their private chambers and mine. I also had to find out if I was to be left alone during the change or if my sire was to stay with me.
A week and a half before my birthday, while spending time with Marcus, I gently approached the subject of the bonds I had. He told me, I have with strong familial bonds with the guard and we are like brothers and sisters. With Renata it's a strong friendly one with a potential to become familial. He then explained the difference in the bonds between him and his two brothers. He explained that while they are the strongest he has ever seen they are vastly different and if I remember correctly what he said was along the lines of this: "The bonds I have with you are that of a protector and father. What I mean is you are my most protected one and I will do what I must at all costs to ensure your safety. I also have a strong fatherly bond with you as a man has with his own child. With Aro, your bonds are that of a brother and his sister but much closer than your bonds with the Guard. They are also the type between best friends and confidants, very strong and loving. While the bonds you share with Aro and I tend to be very strong, the bonds you have with Caius are the strongest yet." He stopped long enough to read my expression and make sure I was alright before he continued. "My dear Daughter, the bonds you have with my younger brother are of mates. What that means is you both feel the pull to be in close proximity of each other and when you are apart it feels as though someone has ripped a hole open in your heart and your soul is bleeding. It's like love at first site to humans or imprinting to shape-shifters. Caius is your imprint, mate, or other half. You cannot live without each other. What I'm saying is if you died at the hand of another he would not be able to survive it. If he did, he would be a shell of himself and be like I am without my Didyme. You have managed to awaken my soul and bring some measure of life back to me." He asked me if I was alright with this and I told him that was what I thought and he stared at me because of my revelation. He even said I had a few gifts that would be more readable after my change. My 'father' told me he would discuss his findings with his brothers and they would like my decision soon. I then told him they would have it on my birthday before any party or whatever they had planned for me.
Afterwards I went in search of Caius. I had to let go of my fear of possible rejection and talk to him. I needed to find out his feelings and finally admit my own to him. When I didn't find him in the obvious places I went to his studio where he spent hours painting only to find it unoccupied. In a way I was relieved he wasn't there but I was disappointed too. That's when I realized Marcus was right. I needed to be with Caius and since he was elsewhere it hurt. That's when I evolved into an artist. I sketched and painted for hours until I was tired, I then went to my rooms and fell asleep.
When I awoke in the morning, I felt pain. I hadn't seen the man I longed for in a few days so I went in search of the other two. Marcus and Aro were in the throne room while Caius was MIA. They looked at me with concern and asked if everything was to my liking. When I explained that it wasn't they found I was hurting as their brother had seemed to fall off the face of the earth. The pain lessened in their company but didn't disappear. They told me what they had planned for my birthday and invited all of their kind to the festivities. They also said Caius would return by then as he went on a minor mission to check on the status of several newborns in the area. That somewhat put me at ease to know he was still in Italy. I went back to Caius' studio in order to be a little closer to him and find some solace in my work.
As my painting took shape I realized, that in all I did in the last few days, everything revolved around Caius. He haunted my dreams, dominated my waking hours, and now was present in my art. I began to question my sanity. My 'father' Marcus came in and explained that this is what the mating pull does when awakened and the other is unavailable. He told me I wasn't going crazy and everything would come together in the end. What he was saying in no uncertain terms is "you will be whole again when Caius returns". I really hoped he planned on returning soon as I wanted the pain to end.
I felt I had familial bonds with most of the guard. Alec, Demetri, and Felix were like brothers and Jane, Heidi, and Chelsea were most definitely like sisters. When I was around them we acted like a bunch of kids. With Renata, I had to tread lightly where she was concerned though. Why, I had to figure out. Did she think I was invading her territory or something? I decided to have Aro get to the bottom of this little matter.
Every day I would meet with the three 'brothers' and we would spend time discussing music, art, and literature, I they all had a deep appreciation for each subject, they all had their personal favorite, and I found that Aro, Marcus, and Caius were vastly different.
While Aro seemed to act like a greedy child but he always had the best interests of others at heart. He and I often sat and discussed our favorite books and authors. We even had heated discussions about William Shakespeare. He told me that he spent time with the man and he was a hopeless romantic that wrote tragic sonnets of love that mostly ended in death, which I found hard to believe, but "Romeo and Juliet" was still my ultimate favorite by the man.
When he asked e of whom my favorite author was I told him I absolutely loved Jane Austen's "Sense and Sensibility" and "Pride and Prejudice". He had said that he'd met her asked me why I liked these two books and I told him he had to read them and then we'd talk, but I did tell him they were stories of finding yourself, everlasting love, and also discussed the way I felt about Renata and he told me to give her time and she would come around. I had to hand it to him, he was right. She and I became close friends and we would do anything to keep him and his brothers safe.
Marcus seemed to have a big heart with a lot of love to give and a large fondness for music, especially the classical genre. He asked me of my likes and dislikes and we found we had more in common than we first thought. We talked about composers and to his relief; he found I mostly enjoyed Debussy, Beethoven, Bach, and Mozart but held a fondness of Chopin, Strauss, and Tchaikovsky. Though I couldn't tell him the concerto's I loved the tones and pitch of the movements through each composer. We spent hours listening to them and discussing different things as the music flowed from the speakers in his study.
To many Caius came off as an anti-peacekeeper and liked to wage conflict with anyone who came across his path, but he didn't fool me. He is actually a great guy once you get to know him but he has a fear of letting anyone close as his ex-wife Athendora really did a number on him. Much like Edward did to me.
His fondness of art and the paintings he painted were enough to blow me away. He showed me his work and asked me my opinion of it. His landscapes were breathtaking but the portraits he painted were phenomenally life like. I liked the portrait of Marcus he did the best. He asked me why and my answer was simple. I told him that he caught the pain and sadness of him and brought it to life.
He explained his love of art to me and said that this was the easiest way for him to express himself without any cruelty. He really had no concept of how to be around people unless he came off as cold and cruel. I stared at him often and once he caught me. He questioned me about it and I explained that I was intimidated by him, fascinated with his knowledge of the finer things in life, infuriated by his cold angry demeanor, and captivated by everything about him. That seemed to render him speechless. When he found his voice he had said that when he first saw me in the throne room weeks before, he himself was infuriated with my knowledge of his kind, fascinated by my lack of self preservation and fear of the Supernatural, and captivated by my beauty and I must have put some sort of mystical spell on him. I asked about that comment and all he told me was 'you will see my meaning all in due time'. I wondered what he meant by that and was floored with a very possible realization; Caius Volturi may be falling for me.
I spent a majority of time with them and in the evenings I was left with my own devices to mull over my feelings for them. I realized quickly that Marcus is a gentle man with a vast amount of love to give and I think of him as a father figure; Aro is a kind loving man that I felt strongly for as the big brother I never had; but with Caius, I found myself feeling things that scared the hell out of me. He seemed to consume my every waking moment and my senses reeled when he was around. He held me captive with his eyes and I felt a burning need to be with him. Oh, sweet Jesus, I think I'm seriously in trouble here; I'm falling for the Snow King himself.
I decided to give them my decision as to who would change me on my 20th birthday which was in a few weeks but first I had to find out from Marcus, who I had the strongest bond with and which of them had the strongest one with me. They all have amazing control over their bloodlust as I spend so much time with them in various parts of the castle, including their private chambers and mine. I also had to find out if I was to be left alone during the change or if my sire was to stay with me.
A week and a half before my birthday, while spending time with Marcus, I gently approached the subject of the bonds I had. He told me, I have with strong familial bonds with the guard and we are like brothers and sisters. With Renata it's a strong friendly one with a potential to become familial. He then explained the difference in the bonds between him and his two brothers. He explained that while they are the strongest he has ever seen they are vastly different and if I remember correctly what he said was along the lines of this: "The bonds I have with you are that of a protector and father. What I mean is you are my most protected one and I will do what I must at all costs to ensure your safety. I also have a strong fatherly bond with you as a man has with his own child. With Aro, your bonds are that of a brother and his sister but much closer than your bonds with the Guard. They are also the type between best friends and confidants, very strong and loving. While the bonds you share with Aro and I tend to be very strong, the bonds you have with Caius are the strongest yet." He stopped long enough to read my expression and make sure I was alright before he continued. "My dear Daughter, the bonds you have with my younger brother are of mates. What that means is you both feel the pull to be in close proximity of each other and when you are apart it feels as though someone has ripped a hole open in your heart and your soul is bleeding. It's like love at first site to humans or imprinting to shape-shifters. Caius is your imprint, mate, or other half. You cannot live without each other. What I'm saying is if you died at the hand of another he would not be able to survive it. If he did, he would be a shell of himself and be like I am without my Didyme. You have managed to awaken my soul and bring some measure of life back to me." He asked me if I was alright with this and I told him that was what I thought and he stared at me because of my revelation. He even said I had a few gifts that would be more readable after my change. My 'father' told me he would discuss his findings with his brothers and they would like my decision soon. I then told him they would have it on my birthday before any party or whatever they had planned for me.
Afterwards I went in search of Caius. I had to let go of my fear of possible rejection and talk to him. I needed to find out his feelings and finally admit my own to him. When I didn't find him in the obvious places I went to his studio where he spent hours painting only to find it unoccupied. In a way I was relieved he wasn't there but I was disappointed too. That's when I realized Marcus was right. I needed to be with Caius and since he was elsewhere it hurt. That's when I evolved into an artist. I sketched and painted for hours until I was tired, I then went to my rooms and fell asleep.
When I awoke in the morning, I felt pain. I hadn't seen the man I longed for in a few days so I went in search of the other two. Marcus and Aro were in the throne room while Caius was MIA. They looked at me with concern and asked if everything was to my liking. When I explained that it wasn't they found I was hurting as their brother had seemed to fall off the face of the earth. The pain lessened in their company but didn't disappear. They told me what they had planned for my birthday and invited all of their kind to the festivities. They also said Caius would return by then as he went on a minor mission to check on the status of several newborns in the area. That somewhat put me at ease to know he was still in Italy. I went back to Caius' studio in order to be a little closer to him and find some solace in my work.
As my painting took shape I realized, that in all I did in the last few days, everything revolved around Caius. He haunted my dreams, dominated my waking hours, and now was present in my art. I began to question my sanity. My 'father' Marcus came in and explained that this is what the mating pull does when awakened and the other is unavailable. He told me I wasn't going crazy and everything would come together in the end. What he was saying in no uncertain terms is "you will be whole again when Caius returns". I really hoped he planned on returning soon as I wanted the pain to end.