Waiting For My Real Life To Begin
by Laura Spudzmom
Chapter 13
The carriage ride from the church was filled with smiles and joy as it seemed like the whole city had turned out to wish them well with shouts and waves the entire way to the Whitlock estate.
Jasper held her hand the entire way, leaning down to her once they were out of the main part of town. "May I kiss you Mrs. Whitlock?"
Bella tilted her face up to his with a smile. "You are my husband now Jasper. You don't have to ask."
His kiss was sweet and soft but lingering and she moaned quietly as she cupped his cheek, a thrill shooting through her when he sucked softly on her plump bottom lip.
He broke the kiss and straightened as they pulled through the high gates of his home, coming to a stop in front of the grand entryway.
Hopping out of the carriage, he handed her out himself, not wanting any other man to touch her.
He smiled down at her as the attendants reached for the doors. "Are you ready for this my beautiful wife?"
She took a deep breath and nodded quickly. "Yes, just don't leave me."
He smiled that slightly lopsided smile that revealed the dimple that she loved so much, amusement dancing in his green eyes. "Leave you? Never! You'll probably weary of me and send me on my way, but I would never leave you my lovely wife."
She smirked at him as they made their way through the doors and into the foyer, whispering out quietly. "I'll never tire of you husband, just you wait and see."
He raised a brow at the challenge he saw shining in her eyes, and patted her hand. "All in good time, beautiful. All in good time."
He had to laugh at her reply as she whispered it out. "Not soon enough my handsome husband. Not nearly soon enough."
The next moment they were descended upon by his parents who ushered them both into a receiving line with their family and Bella's father, whom she smirked at. She leaned over and whispered to him. "No wedding crasher's antics father."
He smirked while staring straight ahead. "Spoil all my fun why don't you. It's not as though anyone can catch me."
She poked him in the side. "Behave Daddy," she whispered out.
He whispered back, just as quietly, "Stop that. You make me feel a hundred plus years old when you call me that."
He glanced at her, mirth shining in his vivid blue eyes and she raised an incredulous brow at him, smirking.
The guests began arriving then in a steady stream and suddenly there was no more time for anything else but greetings and introductions.
When all the guests had arrived, it was time for the dancing to begin and Jasper led Bella out into the middle of the floor, masterfully leading her in their lone dance as everyone watched on, commenting on what a beautiful couple they made.
One such guest was Miss Gladys who had a prime seat that allowed her to take in all the proceedings like a queen on a throne. Jasper had made sure that it was so, and she was delighted.
He made sure to sweep his bride right past her in their dance and she cackled with glee. It had been many years since she'd had this much fun and she was going to be sure to make the most of it.
When the dance was over and the floor filled with couples, Jasper and Bella made their way to Miss Gladys. "Oh my Puddin'! Ya done good young 'un! Sure 'nuff did! And oh what a pretty couple ya make! I can't wait ta see your young 'uns! Yes sir. Gonna be pretty as a penny, just like their Mama and Daddy."
Bella leaned down and kissed her on the cheek. "Thank you for coming Miss Gladys."
"Oh lord child! I wouldn't 'a missed this for the whole world! I been waitin' on my Puddin' ta find the right girl and he sure 'nuff did."
Jasper kissed her cheek. "You make sure that Liza looks after you and gets you everything you need now Miss Gladys. The Whitlock carriage will be taking you home, so no need to worry yourself with that either. You just enjoy yourself."
She patted his cheek. "Your a good boy Puddin' and ya always treated me right. I love ya, boy and I wish ya all the happiness in this ol' world. Now, quit gabbin' with this ol' lady and go take your bride out on that floor again. Nothin' does my heart better than to see you two as ya should be. Young and in love and showin' it off. Now skedaddle!"
He laughed. "Yes Ma'am," and swept Bella back out onto the floor, almost stealing her breath away.
A few dances later Bella found herself in the arms of her father. "Hi Dad."
Damon took a bracing breath, trying not to choke on his emotions. "Hi my beautiful girl."
He swept her around in the most complicated steps of the dance, and she laughed. "Remember teaching me to do this? Seems like a very long time ago doesn't it."
He chuckled, his eyes suspiciously bright. "Not nearly long enough my beautiful girl. Not nearly long enough."
Tears misted her eyes and she laid her head on his chest. "I love you Dad."
He breathed deeply, reining in his emotions as best he could. "I love you too Bella"
When their dance was over, Jasper reclaimed his wife and it was time to cut the cake.
Bella's heart picked up speed because after this was done, they could leave any time and just the thought had that army of butterflies in her stomach taking flight once again.
They cut the first piece and, just as she thought, Jasper was ready to leave, leading her toward the side exit with determination.
They made it outside and he handed her into the waiting carriage which took off as soon as he was seated.
"Where are we going Jasper?"
He glanced at her with a smile. "You'll see. It's a bit of a surprise from both of our parents. Now be patient. We'll be there in just a few moments."
He chuckled as she huffed and turned in her seat to look straight ahead, but she couldn't resist holding to his arm, leaning into him as she did. Just the nearness of him, the feel of his solid form, his scent, his warmth, had her heart racing.
True to his word, just moments later, he pulled the carriage to a stop in front of a beautiful townhome.
She looked at his smiling face with wide eyes. "This is the surprise?"
He laughed. "Yes. It's a gift from our parents. Would you like to go in now wife, or do you want to take in the front of it for a while longer?"
She narrowed her eyes at him in a mock glare. "Stop teasing me husband and help me down."
He laughed and hopped down from the carriage, handing her out. As soon as she was out he swept her up in his arms, drawing a startled gasp from her as she clung to him. "Jasper!"
He leaned down, capturing her lips with his, this kiss tinged with the heat of passion, stealing her breath and making her heart race at the hint of things to come.
When he broke the kiss, she met his gaze whispering, "Take me inside my love."
He smiled brightly. "My pleasure Ma'am." With that, he strode up the steps and through the open door that the attendant closed quietly behind them.
All the interior lamps were lit inside but she barely noticed anything, focused as she was on her handsome husband as he carried her up the wide, sweeping staircase and down a long hall, stopping in front of a set of double doors.
He set her on her feet and opened the door, standing to the side as she entered a lavish master bedroom, the focal point of which was a massive four-poster bed that had already been turned down. She blushed a bit at that as she glanced at her husband who gave her a warm, understanding smile as he took her in his arms.
He stroked her cheek with gentle fingers. "Don't be afraid. I would never hurt you. I know there will be some pain for you, but I'll try to make it good for you too." She nodded, casting her eyes down as a blush heated her cheeks.
He kissed her then and this time she opened for him when she felt his silky tongue brush her lower lip. He delved into her mouth and she moaned at the taste and feel of her mate as she drew closer to him, mapping out his muscled form with her hands as he drew her in even closer, his hardness evident even through the layers of her dress.
He broke the kiss and stepped back a pace, taking a deep breath to try to cool his ardor. If there was one thing he didn't want to do, it was rush to the finish. He had to be patient and take his time.
Toward that end he gestured toward the washroom. "I thought you may want to relax a bit and change. Everything you'll need is already in the washroom. I'll wait for you out here. Do you require assistance with your dress?"
Feeling the blush once again she nodded and turned around. "Yes, if you could manage the buttons, I can manage the rest.
She shivered as she felt his fingers deftly open each button that ran the length of her back, barely containing a moan when she felt his warm, soft lips against the skin of her neck when he finished.
"I'll be waiting" he murmured out against the nape of her neck and she closed her eyes, tilting her head, enjoying the feel of his warm, moist lips on her skin.
Releasing a breathy sigh with a smile, she made her way into the washroom, closing the door softly behind her and leaning against it, staring up at the ceiling.
She desperately needed to calm her nerves, but how? Breathing slowly and deeply for a few moments with absolutely no results, she finally resigned herself to the fact that she was just going to be nervous. There was no help for it. It was her first time after all and if she were being honest, she was scared to death. Not of the pain necessarily, although that was a factor, but of the unknown and of being horrible for him.
She was very afraid of being a disappointment in the bedroom. She knew nothing! Her mother hadn't exactly taken the time to give her any advice or counsel and her father…...she blushed at just the thought of having THAT conversation with her worldly father. She smirked. She was pretty sure that he was just full of knowledge on the subject, but just the thought…...she shuddered. No. Just…...no.
Finally taking stock of her surroundings, she noticed a deep soaking tub that was, to her surprise, full of steaming water. There was even indoor plumbing! She was amazed and delighted.
Undressing quickly, she sank into the warm, fragrant water, praying that it would relax her enough that she wouldn't be a mess of nerves when she went back to her husband. She knew that she was deluding herself, but the water was wonderful at the moment and so she took a few minutes to enjoy it.
Finally deciding that she had delayed long enough, she bathed quickly. Rising from the tub she began to dry herself while her mind wandered back to her husband waiting on the other side of the door.
Her breath literally caught and her nervousness returned twofold what it had been as she pulled on the white eyelet gown that had been hanging by the tub.
She jumped at the knock on the door, beginning to feel light headed due to the speed of her heart and the shallowness of the quick breaths she was taking. Oh god! She was in the beginning stages of a panic attack and she didn't think that she could pull herself out of it.
She clutched onto the side of the basin just as she heard Jasper call out to her. "Isabella, are you all right? Please answer me. Isabella?"
She couldn't find the breath to answer him and she prayed that he would just come in before she got to the passing out stage. Her whole body was trembling now and she knew it wouldn't be long until she hit the floor.
Closing her eyes, she tried desperately to control her breathing when she felt strong arms sweep her up, his concerned voice somewhere off in the distance of her panic fogged mind.
She curled herself into his broad chest, taking in his soothing scent as she slowly came back to herself, his gentle hand sweeping the hair back from her face as he spoke in soft tones punctuated with sweet kisses to her cheek.
"Please Isabella, tell me what is wrong? Are you unwell? Should I send for the doctor?"
She opened her eyes slowly, locking her gaze with his, taking note of his worried expression and the concern in his beautiful green eyes.
"No, everything is fine now", she whispered. "It was merely a bad case of nerves. Sometimes I have trouble catching my breath when I get like that and I faint." She caressed his cheek. "I'm sorry."
He hugged her close, a sigh of relief escaping him. "No need to apologize. You just had me worried. I called and called for you and you didn't answer. I thought something very serious had happened. I'm still not convinced that you are well. Perhaps I should still have an attendant fetch the doctor."
"No!" She sat up in his lap, turning to face him. "No Jasper, I'm fine really. It's happened to me two other times in my life and it's just due to nerves. I'll be fine now. Please?" He didn't look convinced and she tried smiling at him. "Really, I'm fine now." She looked down as she continued. "I was just over thinking things and I got myself in a panic."
He furrowed his brow. "A panic over what?"
She looked up at him through her lashes, deciding to be honest with him. "I'm afraid that I won't please you."
He cupped her face in his hands. "My beautiful wife, don't you know that you already please me? I love you, and all the rest we'll learn together. I've no more experience at this than you do. We're just going to do what nature intended and learn as we go, all right?"
She looked at him shyly and nodded with a tiny smile. "All right."
She closed her eyes as he kissed her lips, deepening it when she opened to him, their tongues tasting and teasing as she began on the buttons of his shirt. Once she had them all open, she broke the kiss and turned in his lap, straddling him. She met his eyes as she ran her hands over his smooth muscled chest, pushing the shirt off his shoulders and down his arms, enjoying the feel of him as she went.
When the shirt was completely off, Jasper picked her up and placed her in the center of their bed.
Moving away a pace, he began to loosen his trousers and she blushed and looked down at her hands. Sure, she'd seen pictures of the male anatomy. She had to in school health class, but she'd never seen the real thing and she knew he was fully erect. She had felt him and she just couldn't being herself to look, although her curiosity was killing her. She wanted to see how big he was and what she was in for because he had felt big and she was pretty nervous about that.
Finally she heard his pants hit the chair and felt the bed dip and she looked up and gasped when she saw him, her eyes flying up to meet his.
He laid beside her and she was sure that she looked like a frightened doe or something because he caressed her face as he leaned up on one elbow. "Don't be afraid. I'll take it very slow and make sure to give you pleasure before you feel any pain. That pleasure will lessen the pain. Do you trust me?"
"Yes."
"Good." He smiled, then tugged on her night dress. "Let's take this off now."
She almost whimpered, but sat up and slid the dress over her head clutching it immediately in front of her, every insecurity she had surfacing at the same moment.
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He leaned over and began to kiss her shoulder, hoping to distract and relax her but it didn't seem to be working so he tipped her head toward his with his fingers under her chin and began to kiss her lips again, his hand tracing down her shoulder and arm to lightly caress her breast and nipple.
She nearly jumped a foot and he sighed.
"You must relax sweetheart. Just try to feel what I am doing and don't think about it so much."
She laid back against the pillows at his urging and looked at him with wide eyes.
"Jasper?"
"Yes my beautiful wife, what is it?"
"Jasper, how in the world are you going to….? I'm not that …..well….and you're…...oh god! This will never work! What are …."
She trailed off as he hushed her. "Shhh, it will work. You said you trusted me, right?"
"Well yes, but…."
"Shhh, no exceptions. You either do or you don't."
She covered her face with both hands for a moment, taking deep, slow breaths.
"Yes." She looked at him again. "I do."
He smiled. "Good. Now close your eyes, relax everything and let me do what I'm going to do without thinking about anything but how it all feels. And no anticipating, just stay in the moment." He caressed her cheek. "Can you do that for me beautiful?"
She nodded, her eyes still closed. "Yes."
He leaned down and began kissing her lightly by her ear, moving down her neck slowly, not touching her anywhere else. He made his way down her shoulder and over her collar bone and on down to her breast where he nuzzled a bit with his nose and lips before taking in her hardening bud, sucking lightly at first and then taking it in deeply, drawing a moan of pleasure from her, her back arching just a bit as her hands buried into his hair.
"Oh Jasper…..that feels….oh god…..."
He kissed his way over to her other breast and as he sucked in that nipple, he placed his hand on her leg, just above her knee, and began to move it up slowly toward her center. The closer he got however, the more she tensed and he looked up for a moment. "Relax Isabella, and just feel. No tension, remember?"
She nodded and relaxed her legs again and he began his journey again while laving and suckling her.
Eventually he made it to her center and he ran his fingers gently through her folds, quickly finding her tight entrance and sliding a finger into her slickened heat.
She gasped and moaned at the feeling of something filling her for the very first time. It was strange and pleasant and then his thumb found something else and she cried out at the feeling that overcame her as he circled and rubbed over it gently, her natural slickness easing the way.
He kept this up and it was feeling really good but then he curled that finger, pressing gently on a spot deep inside her that made her see stars behind her clenched eyelids and she cried out as her hips bucked all on their own as she let her legs fall wide apart. She didn't know what the hell that was, but she hoped he never stopped.
The feeling within her built into an urgency and she begged him with no idea what she was begging for. She begged and moaned and panted until the feeling crescendoed.
She didn't even realize that he now had three fingers inside her, stretching her gently and gradually the whole time.
She slumped back to the bed when the pulsing waves of overwhelming sensation had subsided, opening her eyes to stare at him in wonder.
He removed his fingers and covered her with his body as he kissed her hungrily, not wanting to lose momentum or allow her time to think too much. Moving himself to lie between her spread thighs, he placed himself at her entrance and thrust forward quickly, seating himself all the way within her as she gasped, tears coming to her eyes.
He smoothed her hair from her face, drying her tears as he did. "The worst part is over my beautiful wife. Shhh, I'm sorry for the pain, but it's all over now."
He gritted his teeth and held himself still as she adjusted to him, but it was really difficult to do as the urge to thrust was almost overwhelming.
When the pain subsided, she felt incredibly full and it was a very good feeling, but she wanted him to move so she tilted her hips drawing a groan from him as he began to thrust within her.
She did what felt natural to do and wrapped her legs around him, enjoying the feel of him kissing and nuzzling her neck as he drove forward and pulled out, slowly and powerfully, that urgent feeling beginning to build within her once again. She moaned as she began to arch up to meet his thrusts.
"Oh…..Jasper…..more…..I need more…"
Wrapping his arms under her shoulders, he held her close as he increased the power behind his strokes and she cried out as the tension mounted rapidly within her, every thrust taking her closer to the falling off point.
He buried his face in her fragrant neck as he concentrated on holding off his completion until he was sure that she had found hers, groaning in ecstasy when he felt her tighten and pulse around him, a long low moan coming from her kiss swollen lips.
He allowed his release to take him moments later, burying himself deeply as he filled her, his moan of pleasure muffled by the silky skin of her shoulder.
When he came down from the high of his orgasm, he pulled out gently and laid down beside her pulling her close to him with one arm, her head propped on his shoulder.
After he had caught his breath somewhat he kissed her on the temple.
"I love you my beautiful wife."
"I love you too my handsome husband."
She was silent for moments and Jasper was just drifting off to blissful sleep when her voice brought him fully awake.
"Jasper?"
"Yes my beautiful Wife?"
She popped up and grinned at him.
"When can we do that again?"
The carriage ride from the church was filled with smiles and joy as it seemed like the whole city had turned out to wish them well with shouts and waves the entire way to the Whitlock estate.
Jasper held her hand the entire way, leaning down to her once they were out of the main part of town. "May I kiss you Mrs. Whitlock?"
Bella tilted her face up to his with a smile. "You are my husband now Jasper. You don't have to ask."
His kiss was sweet and soft but lingering and she moaned quietly as she cupped his cheek, a thrill shooting through her when he sucked softly on her plump bottom lip.
He broke the kiss and straightened as they pulled through the high gates of his home, coming to a stop in front of the grand entryway.
Hopping out of the carriage, he handed her out himself, not wanting any other man to touch her.
He smiled down at her as the attendants reached for the doors. "Are you ready for this my beautiful wife?"
She took a deep breath and nodded quickly. "Yes, just don't leave me."
He smiled that slightly lopsided smile that revealed the dimple that she loved so much, amusement dancing in his green eyes. "Leave you? Never! You'll probably weary of me and send me on my way, but I would never leave you my lovely wife."
She smirked at him as they made their way through the doors and into the foyer, whispering out quietly. "I'll never tire of you husband, just you wait and see."
He raised a brow at the challenge he saw shining in her eyes, and patted her hand. "All in good time, beautiful. All in good time."
He had to laugh at her reply as she whispered it out. "Not soon enough my handsome husband. Not nearly soon enough."
The next moment they were descended upon by his parents who ushered them both into a receiving line with their family and Bella's father, whom she smirked at. She leaned over and whispered to him. "No wedding crasher's antics father."
He smirked while staring straight ahead. "Spoil all my fun why don't you. It's not as though anyone can catch me."
She poked him in the side. "Behave Daddy," she whispered out.
He whispered back, just as quietly, "Stop that. You make me feel a hundred plus years old when you call me that."
He glanced at her, mirth shining in his vivid blue eyes and she raised an incredulous brow at him, smirking.
The guests began arriving then in a steady stream and suddenly there was no more time for anything else but greetings and introductions.
When all the guests had arrived, it was time for the dancing to begin and Jasper led Bella out into the middle of the floor, masterfully leading her in their lone dance as everyone watched on, commenting on what a beautiful couple they made.
One such guest was Miss Gladys who had a prime seat that allowed her to take in all the proceedings like a queen on a throne. Jasper had made sure that it was so, and she was delighted.
He made sure to sweep his bride right past her in their dance and she cackled with glee. It had been many years since she'd had this much fun and she was going to be sure to make the most of it.
When the dance was over and the floor filled with couples, Jasper and Bella made their way to Miss Gladys. "Oh my Puddin'! Ya done good young 'un! Sure 'nuff did! And oh what a pretty couple ya make! I can't wait ta see your young 'uns! Yes sir. Gonna be pretty as a penny, just like their Mama and Daddy."
Bella leaned down and kissed her on the cheek. "Thank you for coming Miss Gladys."
"Oh lord child! I wouldn't 'a missed this for the whole world! I been waitin' on my Puddin' ta find the right girl and he sure 'nuff did."
Jasper kissed her cheek. "You make sure that Liza looks after you and gets you everything you need now Miss Gladys. The Whitlock carriage will be taking you home, so no need to worry yourself with that either. You just enjoy yourself."
She patted his cheek. "Your a good boy Puddin' and ya always treated me right. I love ya, boy and I wish ya all the happiness in this ol' world. Now, quit gabbin' with this ol' lady and go take your bride out on that floor again. Nothin' does my heart better than to see you two as ya should be. Young and in love and showin' it off. Now skedaddle!"
He laughed. "Yes Ma'am," and swept Bella back out onto the floor, almost stealing her breath away.
A few dances later Bella found herself in the arms of her father. "Hi Dad."
Damon took a bracing breath, trying not to choke on his emotions. "Hi my beautiful girl."
He swept her around in the most complicated steps of the dance, and she laughed. "Remember teaching me to do this? Seems like a very long time ago doesn't it."
He chuckled, his eyes suspiciously bright. "Not nearly long enough my beautiful girl. Not nearly long enough."
Tears misted her eyes and she laid her head on his chest. "I love you Dad."
He breathed deeply, reining in his emotions as best he could. "I love you too Bella"
When their dance was over, Jasper reclaimed his wife and it was time to cut the cake.
Bella's heart picked up speed because after this was done, they could leave any time and just the thought had that army of butterflies in her stomach taking flight once again.
They cut the first piece and, just as she thought, Jasper was ready to leave, leading her toward the side exit with determination.
They made it outside and he handed her into the waiting carriage which took off as soon as he was seated.
"Where are we going Jasper?"
He glanced at her with a smile. "You'll see. It's a bit of a surprise from both of our parents. Now be patient. We'll be there in just a few moments."
He chuckled as she huffed and turned in her seat to look straight ahead, but she couldn't resist holding to his arm, leaning into him as she did. Just the nearness of him, the feel of his solid form, his scent, his warmth, had her heart racing.
True to his word, just moments later, he pulled the carriage to a stop in front of a beautiful townhome.
She looked at his smiling face with wide eyes. "This is the surprise?"
He laughed. "Yes. It's a gift from our parents. Would you like to go in now wife, or do you want to take in the front of it for a while longer?"
She narrowed her eyes at him in a mock glare. "Stop teasing me husband and help me down."
He laughed and hopped down from the carriage, handing her out. As soon as she was out he swept her up in his arms, drawing a startled gasp from her as she clung to him. "Jasper!"
He leaned down, capturing her lips with his, this kiss tinged with the heat of passion, stealing her breath and making her heart race at the hint of things to come.
When he broke the kiss, she met his gaze whispering, "Take me inside my love."
He smiled brightly. "My pleasure Ma'am." With that, he strode up the steps and through the open door that the attendant closed quietly behind them.
All the interior lamps were lit inside but she barely noticed anything, focused as she was on her handsome husband as he carried her up the wide, sweeping staircase and down a long hall, stopping in front of a set of double doors.
He set her on her feet and opened the door, standing to the side as she entered a lavish master bedroom, the focal point of which was a massive four-poster bed that had already been turned down. She blushed a bit at that as she glanced at her husband who gave her a warm, understanding smile as he took her in his arms.
He stroked her cheek with gentle fingers. "Don't be afraid. I would never hurt you. I know there will be some pain for you, but I'll try to make it good for you too." She nodded, casting her eyes down as a blush heated her cheeks.
He kissed her then and this time she opened for him when she felt his silky tongue brush her lower lip. He delved into her mouth and she moaned at the taste and feel of her mate as she drew closer to him, mapping out his muscled form with her hands as he drew her in even closer, his hardness evident even through the layers of her dress.
He broke the kiss and stepped back a pace, taking a deep breath to try to cool his ardor. If there was one thing he didn't want to do, it was rush to the finish. He had to be patient and take his time.
Toward that end he gestured toward the washroom. "I thought you may want to relax a bit and change. Everything you'll need is already in the washroom. I'll wait for you out here. Do you require assistance with your dress?"
Feeling the blush once again she nodded and turned around. "Yes, if you could manage the buttons, I can manage the rest.
She shivered as she felt his fingers deftly open each button that ran the length of her back, barely containing a moan when she felt his warm, soft lips against the skin of her neck when he finished.
"I'll be waiting" he murmured out against the nape of her neck and she closed her eyes, tilting her head, enjoying the feel of his warm, moist lips on her skin.
Releasing a breathy sigh with a smile, she made her way into the washroom, closing the door softly behind her and leaning against it, staring up at the ceiling.
She desperately needed to calm her nerves, but how? Breathing slowly and deeply for a few moments with absolutely no results, she finally resigned herself to the fact that she was just going to be nervous. There was no help for it. It was her first time after all and if she were being honest, she was scared to death. Not of the pain necessarily, although that was a factor, but of the unknown and of being horrible for him.
She was very afraid of being a disappointment in the bedroom. She knew nothing! Her mother hadn't exactly taken the time to give her any advice or counsel and her father…...she blushed at just the thought of having THAT conversation with her worldly father. She smirked. She was pretty sure that he was just full of knowledge on the subject, but just the thought…...she shuddered. No. Just…...no.
Finally taking stock of her surroundings, she noticed a deep soaking tub that was, to her surprise, full of steaming water. There was even indoor plumbing! She was amazed and delighted.
Undressing quickly, she sank into the warm, fragrant water, praying that it would relax her enough that she wouldn't be a mess of nerves when she went back to her husband. She knew that she was deluding herself, but the water was wonderful at the moment and so she took a few minutes to enjoy it.
Finally deciding that she had delayed long enough, she bathed quickly. Rising from the tub she began to dry herself while her mind wandered back to her husband waiting on the other side of the door.
Her breath literally caught and her nervousness returned twofold what it had been as she pulled on the white eyelet gown that had been hanging by the tub.
She jumped at the knock on the door, beginning to feel light headed due to the speed of her heart and the shallowness of the quick breaths she was taking. Oh god! She was in the beginning stages of a panic attack and she didn't think that she could pull herself out of it.
She clutched onto the side of the basin just as she heard Jasper call out to her. "Isabella, are you all right? Please answer me. Isabella?"
She couldn't find the breath to answer him and she prayed that he would just come in before she got to the passing out stage. Her whole body was trembling now and she knew it wouldn't be long until she hit the floor.
Closing her eyes, she tried desperately to control her breathing when she felt strong arms sweep her up, his concerned voice somewhere off in the distance of her panic fogged mind.
She curled herself into his broad chest, taking in his soothing scent as she slowly came back to herself, his gentle hand sweeping the hair back from her face as he spoke in soft tones punctuated with sweet kisses to her cheek.
"Please Isabella, tell me what is wrong? Are you unwell? Should I send for the doctor?"
She opened her eyes slowly, locking her gaze with his, taking note of his worried expression and the concern in his beautiful green eyes.
"No, everything is fine now", she whispered. "It was merely a bad case of nerves. Sometimes I have trouble catching my breath when I get like that and I faint." She caressed his cheek. "I'm sorry."
He hugged her close, a sigh of relief escaping him. "No need to apologize. You just had me worried. I called and called for you and you didn't answer. I thought something very serious had happened. I'm still not convinced that you are well. Perhaps I should still have an attendant fetch the doctor."
"No!" She sat up in his lap, turning to face him. "No Jasper, I'm fine really. It's happened to me two other times in my life and it's just due to nerves. I'll be fine now. Please?" He didn't look convinced and she tried smiling at him. "Really, I'm fine now." She looked down as she continued. "I was just over thinking things and I got myself in a panic."
He furrowed his brow. "A panic over what?"
She looked up at him through her lashes, deciding to be honest with him. "I'm afraid that I won't please you."
He cupped her face in his hands. "My beautiful wife, don't you know that you already please me? I love you, and all the rest we'll learn together. I've no more experience at this than you do. We're just going to do what nature intended and learn as we go, all right?"
She looked at him shyly and nodded with a tiny smile. "All right."
She closed her eyes as he kissed her lips, deepening it when she opened to him, their tongues tasting and teasing as she began on the buttons of his shirt. Once she had them all open, she broke the kiss and turned in his lap, straddling him. She met his eyes as she ran her hands over his smooth muscled chest, pushing the shirt off his shoulders and down his arms, enjoying the feel of him as she went.
When the shirt was completely off, Jasper picked her up and placed her in the center of their bed.
Moving away a pace, he began to loosen his trousers and she blushed and looked down at her hands. Sure, she'd seen pictures of the male anatomy. She had to in school health class, but she'd never seen the real thing and she knew he was fully erect. She had felt him and she just couldn't being herself to look, although her curiosity was killing her. She wanted to see how big he was and what she was in for because he had felt big and she was pretty nervous about that.
Finally she heard his pants hit the chair and felt the bed dip and she looked up and gasped when she saw him, her eyes flying up to meet his.
He laid beside her and she was sure that she looked like a frightened doe or something because he caressed her face as he leaned up on one elbow. "Don't be afraid. I'll take it very slow and make sure to give you pleasure before you feel any pain. That pleasure will lessen the pain. Do you trust me?"
"Yes."
"Good." He smiled, then tugged on her night dress. "Let's take this off now."
She almost whimpered, but sat up and slid the dress over her head clutching it immediately in front of her, every insecurity she had surfacing at the same moment.
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He leaned over and began to kiss her shoulder, hoping to distract and relax her but it didn't seem to be working so he tipped her head toward his with his fingers under her chin and began to kiss her lips again, his hand tracing down her shoulder and arm to lightly caress her breast and nipple.
She nearly jumped a foot and he sighed.
"You must relax sweetheart. Just try to feel what I am doing and don't think about it so much."
She laid back against the pillows at his urging and looked at him with wide eyes.
"Jasper?"
"Yes my beautiful wife, what is it?"
"Jasper, how in the world are you going to….? I'm not that …..well….and you're…...oh god! This will never work! What are …."
She trailed off as he hushed her. "Shhh, it will work. You said you trusted me, right?"
"Well yes, but…."
"Shhh, no exceptions. You either do or you don't."
She covered her face with both hands for a moment, taking deep, slow breaths.
"Yes." She looked at him again. "I do."
He smiled. "Good. Now close your eyes, relax everything and let me do what I'm going to do without thinking about anything but how it all feels. And no anticipating, just stay in the moment." He caressed her cheek. "Can you do that for me beautiful?"
She nodded, her eyes still closed. "Yes."
He leaned down and began kissing her lightly by her ear, moving down her neck slowly, not touching her anywhere else. He made his way down her shoulder and over her collar bone and on down to her breast where he nuzzled a bit with his nose and lips before taking in her hardening bud, sucking lightly at first and then taking it in deeply, drawing a moan of pleasure from her, her back arching just a bit as her hands buried into his hair.
"Oh Jasper…..that feels….oh god…..."
He kissed his way over to her other breast and as he sucked in that nipple, he placed his hand on her leg, just above her knee, and began to move it up slowly toward her center. The closer he got however, the more she tensed and he looked up for a moment. "Relax Isabella, and just feel. No tension, remember?"
She nodded and relaxed her legs again and he began his journey again while laving and suckling her.
Eventually he made it to her center and he ran his fingers gently through her folds, quickly finding her tight entrance and sliding a finger into her slickened heat.
She gasped and moaned at the feeling of something filling her for the very first time. It was strange and pleasant and then his thumb found something else and she cried out at the feeling that overcame her as he circled and rubbed over it gently, her natural slickness easing the way.
He kept this up and it was feeling really good but then he curled that finger, pressing gently on a spot deep inside her that made her see stars behind her clenched eyelids and she cried out as her hips bucked all on their own as she let her legs fall wide apart. She didn't know what the hell that was, but she hoped he never stopped.
The feeling within her built into an urgency and she begged him with no idea what she was begging for. She begged and moaned and panted until the feeling crescendoed.
She didn't even realize that he now had three fingers inside her, stretching her gently and gradually the whole time.
She slumped back to the bed when the pulsing waves of overwhelming sensation had subsided, opening her eyes to stare at him in wonder.
He removed his fingers and covered her with his body as he kissed her hungrily, not wanting to lose momentum or allow her time to think too much. Moving himself to lie between her spread thighs, he placed himself at her entrance and thrust forward quickly, seating himself all the way within her as she gasped, tears coming to her eyes.
He smoothed her hair from her face, drying her tears as he did. "The worst part is over my beautiful wife. Shhh, I'm sorry for the pain, but it's all over now."
He gritted his teeth and held himself still as she adjusted to him, but it was really difficult to do as the urge to thrust was almost overwhelming.
When the pain subsided, she felt incredibly full and it was a very good feeling, but she wanted him to move so she tilted her hips drawing a groan from him as he began to thrust within her.
She did what felt natural to do and wrapped her legs around him, enjoying the feel of him kissing and nuzzling her neck as he drove forward and pulled out, slowly and powerfully, that urgent feeling beginning to build within her once again. She moaned as she began to arch up to meet his thrusts.
"Oh…..Jasper…..more…..I need more…"
Wrapping his arms under her shoulders, he held her close as he increased the power behind his strokes and she cried out as the tension mounted rapidly within her, every thrust taking her closer to the falling off point.
He buried his face in her fragrant neck as he concentrated on holding off his completion until he was sure that she had found hers, groaning in ecstasy when he felt her tighten and pulse around him, a long low moan coming from her kiss swollen lips.
He allowed his release to take him moments later, burying himself deeply as he filled her, his moan of pleasure muffled by the silky skin of her shoulder.
When he came down from the high of his orgasm, he pulled out gently and laid down beside her pulling her close to him with one arm, her head propped on his shoulder.
After he had caught his breath somewhat he kissed her on the temple.
"I love you my beautiful wife."
"I love you too my handsome husband."
She was silent for moments and Jasper was just drifting off to blissful sleep when her voice brought him fully awake.
"Jasper?"
"Yes my beautiful Wife?"
She popped up and grinned at him.
"When can we do that again?"
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